Anticipation

I battle the urge to live in the future;
Always aware of where I'd like to be,
What I'd like to be doing.
I've been a "planner" since I was a very young kid.
The need to set goals, make lists, and map out an entire year of my life-
In many ways, I believe I've succeeded at my dreams because I was so focused.
Yet there is a part of me that strives for a release.
A break from always anticipating every moment.
Do I miss the real "payoff" because I've been so attached to the idea of what "it" will feel like?
Ultimately I think a little anticipation goes a long way;
My goal is to have an understanding of what may come,
But be open and ready to be surprised!