Sunday, August 31, 2014

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Friday, August 29, 2014

TGIF??

It's not that I don't LOVE the weekends, it's just crazy how fast Friday comes as an adult.
Naturally when you're in school you dream about Friday-
Now, I struggle to get every single task done before the end of the week, and while doing so I lose all track of time.
It's Friday, and I have twenty projects to complete.
Where's an intern when you need one?
Oh, right- they're all off at some Happy Hour.  The weekend starts early for twenty-year olds.

Thursday, August 28, 2014

Note To Inner Self:

Whenever you want to feel like a kid:
Turn on cartoons,
Pour a bowl of bran flakes, add honey, cinnamon and soy milk;
Dive in!
Instant sugary sweet childhood sense memory, without the processed sugar and preservatives!

Wednesday, August 27, 2014

Cut

Sadly, not on a movie set, but from an audition.
No matter how many times you audition and book (or don't book) the job-
The audition process is always a joyful torture.
On the one hand, you get to perform and be creative-
On the other, you are forced to "act" natural while people stare and judge your performance, and then cast you (or not) based on EVERYTHING other than your talent...
It's the life of a performer- and sometimes it sucks!

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

That's Life

It's a phrase I've heard throughout my life-
Offered by friends, family and even enemies (depending on the circumstance.)
As I child, I HATED that short, but painfully truthful analysis of almost any situation:
Your best friend spreads a nasty rumor, "That's life."
Your dog gets hit by a car, "That's life."
Your second runner up in every category, "That's life."
However, when put into perspective, it is also a joyful reminder:
You published a book! "That's life."
You own a home. "That's life."
You sold a TV show!  That's me projecting... But I hope soon enough I'll be saying to myself, "That's life!"
Outlook is everything!

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Random Thought

If we spent more time stretching, and less time complaining that we're getting older... we might not feel like we're getting older!
#Yoga #SundayStretchDay

Saturday, August 23, 2014

Blogged Down

I got so caught up in my day, I forgot to blog!
It's called, being back in Los Angeles and trying to catch up on the life you put on pause.
Still, NO EXCUSES!
An artistic life, involves balance.

Friday, August 22, 2014

Home Sweet Home

They say "home is where the heart is" and while I believe that it's true, you can find happiness, love and family anywhere you are-
There's nothing better than walking into you home after being away for a long period of time.
The joy of being greeted by your family, my puppies give extra long cuddles.
The comfort of knowing where everything is in the kitchen.
But most of all, my BED!
I might actually get a full nights sleep tonight, for the first time in four weeks...
It's great to be home.

Road Trip

Cramped car,
Crappy junk food,
Beautiful scenery,
Bugs flying at the windshield,
Asshole drivers,
Tired truckers,
Spending too much money on gas,
Unclean rest stops.
Ah, the beauty of a road trip!

Wednesday, August 20, 2014

Excited

Meeting with my publisher today!
Eager to see the cover of my first book, for the first time.
What started as a childhood dream-
Expanded into a practical idea,
That lead to a serious project,
Which evolved into a passion,
Finally manifesting into a book that I could not be more proud of.
I'm so excited!

Tuesday, August 19, 2014

Keep The Faith

It's easy to doubt, fear and question,
However it's more rewarding to trust, love and take action.
I've experienced the outcome of negative and positive thoughts; without question, the positive energy always leads to a more rewarding outlook and subsequently a brighter result.
No matter the circumstance, there is power in recognizing we can manifest phenomenal things with Faith.

Monday, August 18, 2014

Forced Relaxation

I always feel guilty taking time off-
My soul wants to create,
My brain wants a challenge,
My OCD wants to take action,
But my heart NEEDS time: with my family, friends and myself.
I need to calm my thoughts, fears and desires, and remember how healing it is to sit in stillness and appreciate my surroundings.
Enlightenment comes through meditation.

Sunday, August 17, 2014

Observation:

Though it can often come with headache and heartache; time with my family is priceless!

Saturday, August 16, 2014

Friday, August 15, 2014

Mom and Dad; My Heroes

I didn't realize it when I was younger-
As an adult, I can comprehend how extraordinary my parents are.
Growing up they gave me: discipline, guidance, support, unconditional love and the confidence to follow my passion; they continue to do so now.  Moreover, they have become my friends.
When I feel like giving up, they're my coach-building me up.
If I need to cry, they provide a shoulder and words of wisdom to cheer me up.
When my ego takes over, they're there to remind me who I am.
When I need help, they continue to offer whatever they can.
I know how lucky I am, I count my blessings everyday.
I have a mom and dad that continue to be my number one fans, whether I'm teaching, performing, writing or working as a waiter; their love and pride is an example of true parenting.

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Annoying Observation:

Even on vacation, I work!
I need to unplug.
Alas, my empire won't grow without my constant hustle!

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Goodbye NYC

After a successful week of teaching, choreographing, and laughing with old friends; it's time I leave NYC.

I'm delighted that I got to see my buddy star on Broadway, my bestie's company shine on stage and even pick up some fun new designer merchandise at the House of Lodes! (AKA my friends hand-me-downs.)

But like all great adventures, this too must end, and just in time- it's raining... And I hate summer rain in NYC!

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Remembering A Master

His ability to bring joy in sadness, truth in comedy and energy to all was extraordinary! Very few people can make you cry while you're laughing and laugh while you're crying-

Robin Williams artistry will be missed.

RIP


Monday, August 11, 2014

Non-Stop NYC

I forgot how busy you feel in NYC.
Between the tourist, subway rides and distractions everywhere- even a trip to Starbucks feels like work.
The city is pulsing with creativity, energy and MONEY.
go, Go, GO! is the attitude here.
I had a massage, three Starbucks coffees, two rehearsals, a Broadway show and dinner all in one day!
It's a crazy adventure, but I'm ready to get back to LA.
These days yoga, a power meeting and an audition are more my speed.

Sunday, August 10, 2014

Line Up

Cheap tickets are near,

Please don't sell out before me!

Ready for the jazz hands.

#TcktsBroadway

Saturday, August 9, 2014

Day Off

After a very long (and rewarding) week of teaching in NYC,
I'm ready to relax and enjoy a mimosa and brunch with good friends.
As soon as I can convince myself to get out of bed and hobble to the shower.
#EveryMuscleInMyBodyAches

Friday, August 8, 2014

Check-in Here

A NYC cafe full of people on their iSwippythings...

Posting, tagging, checking in-

But certainly not making contact with the friends sitting next to them.

I belong to a generation that has the best if both worlds. 

I know how to Tweet a sassy thought, post an interesting photo and check-in to share my location to anyone interested (including the government).

Fortunately, I still remember how to UNPLUG! 

Do the social media tech savvy children of our future even know what a handshake is? Or do the fist bump without looking up as the swipe to a new app?

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Reasons I STILL Love NYC:

You can walk into a random Starbucks near Union Square and run into an old friend, (even though neither of you actually live in NYC anymore) and pick up right where you left off.

You can sit in a park and be approached by three complete strangers from three different countries, who are all in an English class-and they want to engage in conversation to better understand the language. (P.S. All three spoke better English than a third of the people who are actually born here.)

You can eat a three course meal at 1AM and nobody thinks anything of it.

But my favorite part, you can walk around any area of this city and gaze up and see no less than: 10 different types of architecture, 10 different ethnicities and 10 different styles of fashion-all while watching an uber wealthy stockbroker avoid eye contact with a homeless man.

  

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Wrecked!

My body is a twisted piece of crunched up muscle-

Aching all over from prolonged teaching.

How did those dancers keep up?

Oh, right- they're sixteen and I'm thirty-six!

When did that happen?

I might be in pain, but I'll never stop teaching.

...my leg just might not go as high.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

417 West 47th Street

It's like time stood still.

Sitting in the comfort of my old living room, laughing with my roommate;

Reminiscing about the past and catching up on the present.

I was a different person back then, I had yet to grow into myself.

She pointed out that I am comfortable in my new skin-

Yes, I am proud of the person I'm becoming.  I've stayed true to my goals and dreams, and haven't given up on the idea that "it" will happen. 

It IS happening!

A constant work in progress.  Maybe I'll really discover who I am when I'm old and bald?


Monday, August 4, 2014

Line Up!

I hate waiting in lines!

It started at Disneyland when I was five-

And continues to torture me to this day.

Especially at the airport.

TSA

Starbucks

Boarding the plane...

rage. Rage. #RAGE!!!

Sunday, August 3, 2014

Lazy Sunday

Lounging around in my pj's.

Cuddling puppies,

A bottomless cup of hazelnut coffee,

My BFF in town,

And an obscure, but enjoyable movie on Netflix-

It's the perfect lazy Sunday!

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Outlook Is Everything

The really burdensome part of my job is that I have to wake up in a different city every week.

The really exhilarating part of my job is that I get to explore a new city every week.

Life is complicated. It's nice to maintain a positive perspective.

#OutlookIsEverything

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Sense Memory

After all the complaints I make about life on tour,
I figure the least I can do is share a happy memory.
As I was walking out of the hotel elevator after a very long day in the theatre last night, I was flooded with the aroma of hotel pool carpet and the buzzing of the ice machine in the alcove in the hallway.
I was instantly transported to my childhood; wonderful vacations with my family.  Traveling with my grandmas and grandpas was such an adventure, and continues to be with the pair I'm blessed to have left.
It never mattered where we were going, or what we were doing, the love and laughter that surrounded me was overwhelming.
My family gave me the gift of confidence, Faith and unconditional love.  I'm grateful to have that reminder today- life is short, so make it count.
Worry less about the "have nots" and remember the blessings.

Tuesday, July 29, 2014

The Morning Grind

I'm not talking about my grande coffee from Starbucks-
(Although I do love a delicious breakfast blend in the morning!)
My day starts two hours before I'd like to admit.
In order to meet my daily goals, I find myself up before the rooster crows at dawn.
Oddly enough, I used to be a night owl but I realized I'm twice as productive in the morning.
So here I am attempting to be creative.
I've discovered that I may not always write a witty blog post, however the act of committing to a daily essay, poem, random thought or creative writing has encouraged me to invest in my growth as an artist and release the idea of perfection.  Which will lead to more opportunity and success! (Hopefully.)

Monday, July 28, 2014

Life on The Road: The View is Nice

Occasionally, I complain about the irritations of life on the road;
Let's be honest, traveling for work is as enjoyable as going to the dentist for a root-canal.
So when I wake up in a new city, and roll over in my somewhat lumpy and uncomfortable hotel-bed and watch the sunrise over a glistening lake and soaring mountains, I have to admit that I have a pretty awesome life.
My "office" is never in the same place for more than a week.
I get paid to see the world, and however exhausting travel can be-I still appreciate the perks!

Saturday, July 26, 2014

Random Note:

Household budget crisis over;

Bring on the HBO!

I've got a season of True Blood to catch up with.

Friday, July 25, 2014

Regret

That burning pain that seeps up from the stomach and into your chest- 

No, you did not NEED that French Dip Sandwich at 10 PM last night!

#RememberThisNextTime

Wednesday, July 23, 2014

Audition

The excitement of a potential job,
Reading through the script, making choices and preparing a character,
Running lines over and over, until you have it in your body,
Picking out the right clothes to convey the part,
Signing in and waiting in the lobby with twenty other guys that look JUST like you,
The awkward small talk in the casting office–then you slate your name and the scene begins and before you know it, your done...
Walk out feeling confident, you gave it your all and rocked it out!
Then, you wait.  You try to forget about it.  Every time it pops into your head you think, "Wouldn't that be awesome?"
But you let it go, and wait for the next audition.

Monday, July 21, 2014

Sunday, July 20, 2014

Sundays In LA

It's rare when I get to enjoy a Sunday morning at home with my family.
Usually I'm waking up in a hotel bed in a random city across the country; getting ready to spend my day in a theatre.
So I'm taking advantage of this elusive day:
Breakfast in bed,
Walking to Starbucks with the puppies,
Hike in the Hollywood Hills,
Pooltime,
Dinner with friends,
and finally a late night movie in bed!
Full circle.
I love Sundays in LA.

Saturday, July 19, 2014

The Glamorous Life on Tour...

The delight of sleeping in my own bed is second only to the love I receive from my partner and our puppies!
It's not that I don't enjoy life on the road-I just HATE hotel beds.
#SleepIsNecessary

Thursday, July 17, 2014

Wednesday, July 16, 2014

Cafiine RAGE

The line for the Starbucks in our hotel lobby is longer than the Great Wall-

With as many annoying tourists!

How can you not know what you want?

You've been standing in line for twenty minutes! #OverIt!


Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Random Question:

How many different combinations of the same four button down shirts and pairs of pants can you wear before becoming completely sick of it!
It's like a fashion game for middle-class people.
You have enough money to buy a few nice things, so you have to figure out how to maximize the return..
I think I'm doing okay, but one quick look on my Instagram, might tell a different story.
#TiredOfTheSameOldLooks

Monday, July 14, 2014

Moonlight Swim

The warm water rushed toward my feet,
Waves crashing faster,
No looking back now-I'm in to my waste.
The salty air was intoxicating,
Moonlight glistening across the horizon;
I love a midnight dip!

Saturday, July 12, 2014

Lucky In Love

After a week of working out of town and a twelve hour travel day, I crashed last night.

Waking up to the smell of Kona coconut Hawaiian coffee and bacon is just one of the many perks to married life.

I'm so blessed that I found my soulmate-

Whether creating projects, exploring a new city while on vacation or lounging at home watching Saturday morning cartoons, I am the luckiest man alive.

Because I found a partner who inspires me to thrive!


Friday, July 11, 2014

Travel Day

Up at 5 AM.

Thank God for Starbucks.

The shuttle driver proceeds cautiously at a snails pace to the airport-

TSA is surprisingly short,

So is my first flight.

Connection in Denver (I wish I had time to see my family). 

One day at home, then back on the road...

It's impossible to get enough sleep or look good.

Ah, the glamorous life!

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Inspiration

Never stop fighting for your dreams-

You never know who's counting on your positive energy to encourage them.

Inspiration is contagious!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

Living The Dream

Choreographing in a hotel room,

Drafting a marketing and PR strategy for my new book,

Composing an email to my manager,

Coordinating a meeting with a TV network to pitch our TV pilot-

All on three hours of sleep.

So I'm pretty much living the dream!

#TheGlamorousLife


Monday, July 7, 2014

Insomnia

Wired and hopeless,

Tomorrow is upon me.

Today will be long!

Success Takes Planning:

Focus,

Clearly recognizing my goals.

Determination,

Creating opportunities where they didn't exist.

Strategy,

Learning the game quickly.


Saturday, July 5, 2014

The Glamorous Life on Tour

So begins my five week tour of the United States of America.
I will spend half my time in and out of airports-
Thankfully my company decided to book me on several different airlines, so I won't be able to enjoy the benefits of airline-mileage programs. #Sarcasm
Additionally, I'm thrilled for the five-plus hour layovers I will get to enjoy.
Most of all, I'm excited for the lack of sleep I'll get between now and the middle of August!
#TheGlamorousLife

Friday, July 4, 2014

Note To Self:

When life seems overwhelming-
Remember your vacation on Hawaii,
Close your eyes,
Visualize the calming sea,
Release the fears that are holding you back,
Trust in the plan that is set in motion,
And shut the F_@K up and get to work, (so that you can pay for that trip to Hawaii)!

Wednesday, July 2, 2014

Back To Reality

The first day back from vacation is always a rough one;
You wake up ready for another dream day, and remember you have to go to work-which can be more like a nightmare (depending on the day.)
Nevertheless, the holiday served it's purpose:
Rest, recharge and remember why you work so hard in the first place...
To enjoy time with family and friends in beautiful tropical destinations!
Life is short.  Work hard. Play hard!

Sunday, June 29, 2014

Hawaiian Vacation Day 13

Today I celebrate and honor the spirit of my Gram.  She taught me almost everything I know, and certainly inspired me to laugh, love, dance and never give up!
One of her favorite quotes was, "Bloom where you're planted."
As a kid, I hated that thought- "Why not dig yourself out and bloom somewhere else if you're unhappy."
Now, I see the beauty in the thought.  There will be many pit stops along the path of life, if you learn how to flourish despite them, you will always grow, evolve, "bloom!"
I miss her so much, but I will continue to shine on in her honor! 
Love you gram! 

Saturday, June 28, 2014

Friday, June 27, 2014

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Sunday, June 22, 2014

Hawaiian Vacation Day 6

This peaceful, stress-free way of life doesn't just have to happen in Hawaii- I can adopt the same mindset back home, too.  
I'm worry free and confident while I'm in Hawaii, because I make that choice.
Life isn't easier here, it's just easier to see clearly. It's all perception.


Saturday, June 21, 2014

Hawaiian Vacation Day 5

Today I remembered-
I must not lose: 
My ability to dream,
The fearlessness to declare my dream to the Universe,
The confidence to take action toward accomplishing my dream,
And my Faith to trust that it will manifest as it is supposed to.
#DanceThroughLife

Thursday, June 19, 2014

Hawaiian Vacation Day 3

I strive to find balance in my life- i
It's important that I set goals and intentions that motivate me-however, getting stressed or angry if targets aren't met, is counterproductive.  
Goals are in place to inspire me, not overwhelm.  If I'm not enjoying the process, then what is the point?  Happiness is not in the victories, it's in the daily journey.

Saturday, June 14, 2014

Thursday, June 12, 2014

Rage at Starbucks: I. HATE. TECHNOLOGY!

Eager to share a funny story, I logged on to my Tumblr account and was ready to start writing-
Forty-five minutes and fifteen attempts to sign-on later... I'm frustrated and over it!
I've said it before, and I'll say it again: I. HATE. TECHNOLOGY!

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

RX: Vacation

Is it that obvious I NEED a vacation?
Apparently the answer is YES!
One of my closest friends reached out to me yesterday,
"Don't take this the wrong way, but I've known you long enough to tell you, I think you need to take a break."
She's right.
My journey feels more like a job than an adventure.  I've been pushing myself to continue to create and stay motivated, that I discounted the idea that my mind and body need to rest, too.
After all, what's the point in working so hard, if I'm not going to give myself some time to sit back and enjoy the results?
Following the cover shoot for my book this week (which is TOTALLY EXCITING) I'm going to Hawaii-
A trip that was planned months ago, and I was actually dreading it.  Until I realized, with the help of my friend, that EVERYONE needs some down time.
Hopefully in two weeks, I will come back recharged and inspired!

Monday, June 9, 2014

Broadway Inspiration

Watching last nights Tony Awards reminded me how much I miss performing live-
As much as I love the process of writing and shooting media, the energy and theatricality of a live performance will always be magical.
Because I don't already have enough to do... #Sarcasm.
I've decided to focus on finding the perfect opportunity to jeté back on stage.  It's been so long since I've even auditioned for a musical, but I figure there's no time like the present.
Life is short.  Set goals and work your ass off to accomplish them.

Sunday, June 8, 2014

Life On Tour: I Miss My Weekends

I can't wait until I can sleep-in on a Sunday; without a 4 am wake-up call and a 6 am flight to catch.
I vaguely recall the intoxicating aroma of brunch, and the tangy taste of mimosas. 
It's been six months since I went to mass or an afternoon movie-
Lounging poolside feels like a dream.
I'm thankful for my career, even if it means giving up my weekend adventures.
#BookTour 

Saturday, June 7, 2014

Another Life Lesson From The Road

When you wake up in your hotel room before the sun is up-
It's best not to look in the mirror.
Instead, avoid turning on lights, and jump into the shower.
Once you've allowed the water to warm your face (approximately 20 minutes) continue getting ready as normal.
Be prepared, you still might look like an alien, but at least the crust around your eyes will be softer!
#IHATESleeplessNightsOnTheRoad
#TheGlamorousLife

Friday, June 6, 2014

Random Thought: Re Technology

You know you're a spoiled asshole when you #rage because it takes twenty minutes to send an email from Starbucks!
 #21stCenturyProblems #technology

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

What's Your Opinion?

I'm always shocked when a person will attack me for sharing my thoughts, after they've asked for my, "honest opinion."
We all know opinions are like assholes- everyone has one.  If you don't want to hear my feedback... don't ask for it.  If you only want to hear positive critique then just say, "I don't really care for your thoughts, I just want to hear praise."
Asshole.

Monday, June 2, 2014

Travel Days

Airports are the worst aspect of life on the road.

TSA aside-

Dealing with bitter, jaded, nasty airline employees suck.

I get it. You're tired of the endless parade of uneducated, uncivilized, overweight assholes who don't have a clue...

But: 

A. YOU chose this job. 

B.  and more important, I am not one of those people aforementioned.

So slap on a phony smile and take care of your customers. 

Please and thanks (with a phony smile back!)

#United  

Sunday, June 1, 2014

Thoughts In The Dark

Sitting in the darkness of the theatre,
I'm confronted with flashes of my past adventures;
There is a moment of panic,
That chapter has closed.
Then-
A spark,
The end of every chapter, is the beginning of a new one.
I'm ready for a new adventure.
It's time!

Saturday, May 31, 2014

The Glamorous Life

Flight delayed, in at midnight;
Drama at the front desk- it's NO Holiday...
Four hours of sleep then off to the theatre,
Twelve hours of dancing, that's the gig!
#TheGlamorousLife

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Zen Puppies

I love to watch my puppies wake up;
Slow yawns, then-
Drop, roll over and wait for belly rubs.
Harnesses on, they eagerly wait by the front door.
Once we're back from their morning walk,
They twirl for cookies,
Followed by a hop, circle dance to the food bowl (they each have their own special way of eating.)
Finally, with a full belly, they run to their doggy beds in the living room:
The yorkie, Ginger, soaks up the sun, while the shih tzu, Lily, lays around watching the squirrels outside.
It's a wonderful zen moment.
#AnimailsAreNecessary

Sunday, May 25, 2014

Saturday, May 24, 2014

Another Holiday Weekend #Working!

I think working on a holiday weekend is my punishment for not having an office job to report to everyday.
I don't have a corner office in trendy building in LA, but don't get it twisted...
I work seven days a week-
It's called the #HustleOfAnArtist.
Writing, organizing, storyboarding, re-writes, shooting, editing, posting, social media, networking, researching, teaching, judging, choreographing, gigging to pay the bills, etc.
True, I don't punch in on a time clock,
My hours never stop-
#AlwaysOnTheJob in order to succeed.

Friday, May 23, 2014

Thursday, May 22, 2014

A Sea of Friendship

Occasionally, a friend will disappoint me-
Unintentionally, yet still painful.
Like life, friendships have cycles;
Sometimes we flow together, randomly we drift apart.
Finding comfort in the waves of emotion,
Trusting that true friends will float to the top.

Wednesday, May 21, 2014

Monday, May 19, 2014

Another Friendly Reminder to Myself:

I worry too much.
I always have. Especially as a child-
Any of my energy that wasn't spent acting out skits for my family (or more-so for myself in front of a mirror) was exhausted in deep thought.
I overanalyzed, questioned and contemplated every detail of my life.
I concerned myself with how others might react to my decisions, and for the better part of my young adult life, I continued this pattern.
Allowing the actions or reactions from others, to dictate the way I communicated, planned or approached a situation.
Finally, after several life changing events, I made an epic self discovery:  I am not responsible for how others react to my decisions.  My choices are mine, and the only person I have to please, is myself.
Not out of selfishness, but rather full of self-respect.
I have strong opinions.  I still overthink things and I'm highly critical of myself, however, I've managed to adopt a healthier outlook on pursuing my goals and finding balance in my life.
As an artist, I struggle with "the question" which I now call "checking in."
Should I continue to purse my goals?
This question that lingers over my head, is the primary reason I've committed myself to daily journaling and my creative writing on this blog.  I'm dedicated to my growth as a person: mentally, physically, emotionally, artistically and spiritually.  I want to live a balanced life-  therefore, it is necessary for me to evolve in my ideas and adapted to the opportunities (and setbacks) that I am faced with.
I wouldn't continue to work my ass off every single day if I didn't believe that I am destined to achieve my goals.
I never thought about deadlines growing up.  I just knew that I was going to "make it."  As time passed and I got a little older, I began to see others giving themselves ultimatums and setting timelines.  "If I don't [Fill in the blank] by my thirtieth birthday, then I will quit.
What's the point?  If my goals are still real in my mind, then why on earth would I stop pursing them- especially after all of the time I've invested.
As long as I have a point of view that is uniquely mine, and the passion to share it- I'm going to fight to get it heard!
Allowing anything other than positive energy and Faith to motivate me, is an utter waste of time.

Back To The Grind!

Another Monday.
The email in-box is full;
Starbucks will save me!

Saturday, May 17, 2014

Saturday Morning Sans Work-

I love Saturday mornings-
I rarely get one off, but when I do...
Look out Sponge Bob, I'm watching you.
Breakfast in bed, followed by a long walk with the puppies.
After that, who knows what will happen.
I have no plans, and I don't care.

Friday, May 16, 2014

Just One Of Those Days...

You know those days when you wake up happy,
with a wonderful adventure planned-
Then, without waring, everything turns to SHIT!
Today, is one of those days!
After spending three hours on the phone dealing with a business matter that should have been resolved in ten minutes...
I missed my movie, a trip to the beach and the chance to have a delicious lunch with friends.
The worst part is, I'm so pissed off, I can't even move past it, to go forward and enjoy whats left of my DAY OFF!
#RAGE #Annoyed #ThatsLife #TRYINGtoRELEASE!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Me Time

Sitting outside in the valley heat,

Drinking my Starbucks iced coffee-

The puppies comfortably passed out in my lap.

I should be writing or returning calls,

But instead, I'm enjoying some me time (with a splash of social media), naturally.

Wednesday, May 14, 2014

Auditions

Similar to going to the doctors office,
Auditions can be a painful experience-
The waiting room anxiety,
The fear that your going to hear something your not ready to learn about yourself,
The awkward “small talk”,
and then:
The naked vulnerability,
The only difference is that after the doctor, you leave with a lollypop!

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Forced Creativity May Lead to Something?!

When you're over worked, it's hard to find time to write-
Nevertheless, I force myself to sit in front of my computer screen searching for creativity.
I'll let you know when it arrives.

Monday, May 12, 2014

Networking Takes Work! ...AND A BETTER SPELL CHECK!

It's interesting how responding to one email can turn into a forty-five minute project.
Carefully scrutinizing every word (with far more patience than I do this blog post), I hit send, only to see a typo-
That's life.
Do I send an additional reply and comment on the silly mistake? Or do I let it ride and hope they understand?
How come networking takes so much work?

Sunday, May 11, 2014

Happy Mother's Day

Mom, you gave me life-

Even though I'm sure you wished you could take that back during my teenage years, I'm grateful you didn't!

Thank you for your unconditional love, support and faith in me and my dream.

You are the worlds best mom!


Saturday, May 10, 2014

Friday, May 9, 2014

Two Choices:

The opportunity always exists to be grateful for what I have,
rather than lamenting over the things that I want.
The advantage of celebrating my victories, however small, provides an energy that usually leads to unexpected adventures.
vs.
Laying around sulking, which inevitably lends itself to: overeating, weight-gain, complaining, a bitter attitude, a bleak outlook, depression and an overall lack of creativity.
Life is too short for that shit!
#MakeItHappen

Thursday, May 8, 2014

Goodbyes Suck

Saying goodbye is never easy;
Especially when it's your mom.
Watching as the car turns the corner and fades into the sea of traffic-
It's like a vacuum cleaner is sucking the laughter and unconditional love away from you.
Just like that, the suspended childhood-bond that emerges whenever she is near, gets ripped apart all over again.
My heart sinks and I realize, my life as an adult must continue.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

Note To Self:

When life gives you a free and delicious steakhouse dinner;
You take it.
Eat all of it. (Regardless of how fat you already feel because all you've been doing for the past week is consuming calories of every kind.)
Then, you regret it the next morning and tell yourself you CAN lose ten pounds in two days.
#MyMonthLongBirthdayCelebrationContinues

Monday, May 5, 2014

A Cinco de Mayo Thought:

Americans love a holiday,
Especially one that they've invented that involves booze.
Margarita- rocks with salt.
Don't forget the chips and salsa.  Guacamole, too!
It's Cinco de Mayo and I'm a partying fool.

Saturday, May 3, 2014

The Art of Balance in Hollywood

It's so easy to get wrapped up in the LA scene-
Hustling for meetings, pitching your fabulous projects, relentless SELF-promotion;
You start to buy into the idea that you're only a success if you have two TV pilots in production, a movie deal with NBCUniversal, your own reality TV show and 10 BILLION followers on Instagram!
It's exhausting, but you're trapped into this belief that if you take a break you'll lose EVERYTHING!
When my mom comes to visit, I'm forced to STOP.  Family reminds you that there are far more important things in life than how you look on camera.  My loved ones knew me when I was just a little kid with a huge imagination and an enormous dream.
They continue to support my adventure, offering their love and encouragement.
I strive to live with balance in my life-  Naturally, I'm not perfect.  I do, however, fight to be a better person every day.
Therefore, in honor of my thirty-SOMETHING birthday, and my family in town I'm going to give myself the week off.
There will be plenty of time to conquer Hollywood next week, and if "Hollywood" forget who I am in a week, I'll just stage a "comeback" by checking myself into trendy rehab facility- I may have to do that anyway after this week!

Thursday, May 1, 2014

Mouth Pain

The heat in the valley is rough-

But not nearly as much as my tongue from my retainer!

#AdultPubertySucks!

Wednesday, April 30, 2014

Ode To Mexican Food

Puffy face,
Fat belly,
When I eat Mexican food, my body shakes like jelly.
Too much salt and lard and flour,
I need detox, and the treadmill for an hour!

Tuesday, April 29, 2014

Nothing For Granted...

When you're not feeling great about yourself-
Change something small.
Get a haircut or try wearing something you have in your closet, but mix in a fresh new spin;
Little tweaks bring a fun new energy to your life.
If that doesn't work, close your eyes and remember all the huge things we take for granted, like: walking, talking, oh and breathing!

Sunday, April 27, 2014

Rise and Shine and CAFFEINE!

Rise and shine,
And get that espresso machine turned on, because I'm coming for a triple latte and I don't have time to waste.
Another long day in the theatre requires a very caffeinated, me.
#TheGlamorousLife

Saturday, April 26, 2014

Starbucks NEEDED!

 A sleepless night, equals a long day in a dark theatre-
You'd think with the bass pumping and dancers jumping it would be easy to stay awake,
But the heat from the stage lights calms the body.
Today is going to require an extra trip to Starbucks, lets just hope that three triple-shot lattés will do the trick!

Friday, April 25, 2014

Pep Talk.

Living a happy life requires constant release and Faith.
Dismissing the thoughts and demands that I think society expects of me; it's vital to my success.
I refuse to get lost in a sea of doubt.  Sure, it's easier to give into fear.
Taking action, however, has always served me well.
I don't know where my future will take me, but judging from my past, I imagine the adventures will be fun.
As I get older, it has become more tempting to abandon my optimistic nature-
How will that serve me?  It won't.
Life is a journey; there will be mountains to climb and a lot of less-than-fair weather to overcome.  Through each struggle, I will conquer new heights.
When I look back on my life, it will be the view from the peaks that I cherish.

Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Random Observation

I didn't think it was possible to gain 15 pounds in three days-

This Easter, I proved that it most certainly is.

#HealthyDetoxStartsNow!

Monday, April 21, 2014

Note To Self:

Avoiding your email in-box after a holiday, will not solve your problem.
It's time to roll up my sleeves and start reading / deleting!

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Twas The Night Before Easter...

And all through the hotel room,
I'm moaning and groaning from a delicious dinner at the Chart House.
I feel fat and I'm tired, ready for bed.
To wake up for a sunrise mass.
Happy Easter.

Friday, April 18, 2014

Daily Reminder:

Remove the doubt and take action!
Remove the doubt and take action!
Remove the doubt and take action!
Remove the doubt and take action!
Remove the doubt and take action!
[Repeat 15 more times]
Do this daily and you will be shocked how much more you can accomplish!

Thursday, April 17, 2014

People Watching at Starbucks

Young or old, everyone has their swagger.

Swinging, swishing, hunched or pulled up-

Fast and furious, or

Slow and steady, both on a mission:

Coffee! Java. A cup-of-Joe

Creatures of habit.  In need of caffeine, and socialization.

Starbucks is more than a coffee house, it's an anthropological classroom in the university of life.

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Pool Time.

Pool time.

Enjoying the sun after yoga-

Relax. Restore. Recharge.

Like a lizard on a rock,

I soak up the healing rays!


Tuesday, April 15, 2014

Monday, April 14, 2014

Travel Day

Awake, but not conscious.

Sitting at another airport sipping on a watered down soy latte from Starbucks.

Surrounded by a small group of regular travelers (I can tell by the roadmap that marks their face and zombie eyes.)

I feel like a member of The Breakfast Club! Only our group would be called The Sleepless, Worn-down, Tired of this Lifestyle BUT Grateful for A Job Club.

Instead of getting detention we get delayed! 

#TravelDay 

Sunday, April 13, 2014

Sometimes- What Happens In Vegas, Shouldn't Happen!

It's not that I don't love themed brass bands;
It's just that I'd rather not hear them at 3 AM while I'm trying to sleep...
#Vegas
#StreetFair
#GoToBed!

Saturday, April 12, 2014

Weekend Dream...

Regardless of the amount of sleep I get, waking up to go to work on weekends always feels gross and wrong!
I want to sleep in, and slowly rise to the sound of cartoons and the blended aroma of coffee, bacon, and pancakes.
I'd casually roll myself out of bed, with my down comforter wrapped around my entire body, plop down on the sofa and drift in and out of sleep between shoving a piece of crisp salty pork in my mouth.
Eventually I'd decided to wake-up with a hot shower (around noon) and convince myself to get outside-
Maybe I'd go for a walk to Starbucks with the puppies and spend another hour or soaking up the sun.
Finally, I'd be ready to meet up with friends for an afternoon movie, followed by dinner and maybe a dance club?
But instead, I'll hurry and write in my journal, compose my morning blog, do my daily stretching, rush to get my social media fix, jump in the shower and throw on clothes, with enough time to grab a crappy hotel coffee, shove a Cliff bar down my mouth and make my way to sit in a theatre for twelve hours judging performers without a break!
#TheGlamorousLife

Friday, April 11, 2014

Adult Puberty!

I haven't decided which is worse:

The actual embarrassment of talking to people with a lisp and a mouth full of metal.

Or 

The actual sores on my tongue from having the retainer in my mouth all day!

#StraightTeeth #WorthIt?! 

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Wake Up Your Goals!

The moment you actualize a dream it becomes a goal-

The difference? 

Dreams inspire you in your sleep.

Goals motivate accomplishments by taking action!

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Play Hard, Work Harder

In Las Vegas I let myself go-

I ate to much and had some laughs,

Now it's time to get back in yoga.

I've got to work out and get rid of this FAT!

Monday, April 7, 2014

Family Vacation, Saying Goodbye

Family vacation,
Spending time with the people I love;
Laughing a lot and eating more!
Italian passion is wrapped in emotions-  AKA calories.
My family is crazy, hilarious, loud and opinionated.
Despite the moody moments, our quality time was filled with joy.
Highlight: wonderful one-on-one time with my sister and my beautiful niece.
(The first vacation with my sister since high school!)
The time is near to say our goodbyes.
When I was a kid, that meant a lot of tears.
As an adult, I value the time I have and look forward to the next one!
Hopefully sooner than later.
I love my family.

Friday, April 4, 2014

Polluted!

It's a challenge to accept it, but my "little" cousin turned 21 yesterday!
I used to change her diapers.
Now, I'm changing out her empty beer cans.
My entire family is in Las Vegas to celebrate the epic event.
I choose the word "epic" because twenty-five family members in the same city, sharing the same hotel, drinking and celebrating has it's fireworks!
Nevertheless, we partied until 1 AM,
Shelby, my cousin, was still standing at the end of the night, too.
Never mind the fact that she was being held up by her boyfriend and her mom.
Yep, that's how we roll in our family.
Through life's ups and downs, my family will rally to make sure you're always on your feet.
(...and heavily polluted!)
#GramsWordNotMine

Thursday, April 3, 2014

The Joys Of Airport Travel

When you're willing to spend $6 on a microscopic bottle of water at the airport, you know you're dehydrated!

#TheJoysOfAirportTravel

Tuesday, April 1, 2014

You Have Two Options:

Stay in bed and dream about it happening.
Or
Get up and do it.
In life we always have choices, but the only thing that's going to make your dream a reality is:  Action!

Monday, March 31, 2014

Faith

As I get older and I'm blessed with each new day on this earth, I appreciate the opportunities that I've had-

My past is a reminder to continue living in the present and release the idea of what my future "should be."

Setting goals and working towards them, always mindful that I will experience everything I "need" to, when I'm meant to.

Adventure only comes to those who are open to change and unexpected circumstances. 

I have Faith that my path will lead me where I'm most prepared for the journey.

Sunday, March 30, 2014

Perk Of Traveling

I'm not always thrilled about traveling every weekend-
Flying is rough, especially the TSA nonsense.
Occasionally I have the opportunity to see friends that I've made over the course of my career.
Last night I enjoyed a delicious dinner, and even more exceptional conversation with two of my favorite dance colleagues.
I woke up (too early) and rather than hating this aspect of my job, I reminded myself that with all of the downfalls, this job has its perks, too!
Life is all in the outlook.
I choose to find the gratitude this morning.
Now, I'm off to spend fourteen hours in a theatre, I'm still searching for the positive affirmation on that one!

Saturday, March 29, 2014

Just The Facts Please!

The only time I watch the news is when I'm staying at a hotel.
(Which is every weekend.)
It's nice, because instead of hearing the same exploited, unverified, inaccurately reported "news" is when CNN is recapping everything they got wrong throughout the week.
#WhatHappenedToSeriousJournalism

Friday, March 28, 2014

Worth The Wait or I Will Rage!

The TSA line at LAX is just a training camp for the line that awaits me at Starbucks!

I don't care if I miss my flight, I'm not leaving without my latte!

Thursday, March 27, 2014

Keep The Content Coming!

Trying to come up with a new Instagram post idea every day is harder than trying to convince a senior citizen that Miley Cyrus has talent.
As an artist I'm always trying to evolve and reinvent myself-
Thanks to social media, you have to create new content on a daily basis.
I miss the good ol' days when you just had to have one successful project every few months and people were satisfied.
Now I know how Madonna must feel!
#ItsHard!

Wednesday, March 26, 2014

Tuesday, March 25, 2014

Monday, March 24, 2014

Plugged In!

I read my news on Facebook,

I get my inspiration from Instagram,

I laugh out loud reading my Twitter feed,

I watch TV on YouTube-

I think it's safe to say I'm in engulfed in 21st century lifestyle!

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Let It Go. Seriously, Let It Go!

Don't be pissed about something that happened yesterday.
The fact that I let it ruin one day is bad enough.
Now I have to let it go. Release the disappointment, anger and rage.
Some people are assholes, I realize this and accept that there is nothing I can do about their problems.
I don't have to let their drama, become mine.
Let it go!

Saturday, March 22, 2014

Technology Makes Me Rage!

Dear iMovie-
Thank you for sucking the life out of me.
I'm so happy I spent the better part of two weeks on a project that you would inevitably erase.
I'm even more grateful that you encrypted every single copy of the back-up I created, and destroyed all of the RAW footage.
As pleasurable as our relationship has been-
I am over you.
I will now use Final Cut Pro for everything concerning matters of my movie memories, in addition to the professional footage I shoot.
I can't say I'll miss you, let's just say I'll see you on my desktop and laugh at how terrible you really are.


Peace,
Matthew

Friday, March 21, 2014

Go For The Gold!

I'm addicted to watching documentaries on Netflix.
I #LOVE it!
I'm currently watching 30 for 30 - The Price of Gold.
It brings back so many memories.
The Tonya Harding and Nancy Kerrigan saga was all anyone talked about in 1994.
"Why me?!"
"Did she do it?"
"My lace broke!"
But most of all... #BADHair.
It's also hilarious to see how dated the footage looks.

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

Tuesday, March 18, 2014

Random Observation:

The more work I get done, the more I have left to do!
I'm beginning to think I should just stop working...
#TheProblemsWithToDoLists #Overachiever

Saturday, March 15, 2014

Gratitude

It's easy for me to get lost in the daily grind.
Forgetting to appreciate the people in my life who bring me joy;
Acknowledging the opportunities that have sustained my journey.
Especially in LA, I'm always working, fighting, planning for the next venture,  I over look the adventure I'm on today.
I'm grateful for my past, and hopeful for my future-
But I want to be better about giving thanks for today!
#GratitudeInThisMoment

Friday, March 14, 2014

Moving On...

Moving on from a bad day can be tough.
But what's done is done,
It's time to put the past behind me and have some fun.
Deep breathes in. Deep breathes out.
Smile, release fear and remove doubt.
Besides, if I died tomorrow would I really care about yesterday?

Thursday, March 13, 2014

Deal With It...

Sometimes no matter how hard I try to fight a feeling or emotion, I just can't get past it.
I don't spend much time feeling sorry for myself-
But when I'm deep in a slump, it's harder to climb my way out.
I pride myself on being the type of person that doesn't hold onto fear, anger or resentment, so in moments like this I feel extra disappointed in myself.
For not letting go.
For not moving forward.
For not releasing.
For not taking positive action.
For not using any of the validating exercises I KNOW work-
I guess sometimes I just need to feel like shit.
And today, I'm trying to be okay with that.

Wednesday, March 12, 2014

Creative Habit

It's not enough to "feel" creative-

You have to take that urge and use it everyday.

The artist in you grows with action!