Thursday, September 18, 2014
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Until they dumped Rosie for a Republican schmoe,
This season returns with a new logo, a new set and a new Republican, too!
But, I'm back on board for the Rosie times TWO!
Monday, September 15, 2014
Everywhere you look there is a stack of something gross and crusty.
Half-eaten containers of food underneath furniture.
Overflowing trash bin.
Board game remnants strewn about.
And a funky smell fills the air... What is that? It's nothing that was prepared by me!
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Friday, September 12, 2014
Life is full of ups and downs. Especially in the entertainment industry.
I fight to maintain my disgustingly positive energy, even in the midst of a dry-spell or a shitstorm!
Everything seemed so much easier in my twenties.
Now, I actually have to give myself a pep-talk to get to yoga, class or a meeting...
I guess that's what happens when you hit thirty- you allow the reality of reality to sink in.
Well, I have a choice. I refuse to be a bitter thirty-something complainer-
I'm ready for my next adventure. But the only way that's happening is with the motivation to get up off my ass and do something about it.
Thursday, September 11, 2014
I woke up to the sound of crying, my roommate had been up earlier than I, and saw the first plane fly into the World Trade tower.
We watched in horror as the second plane flew into the second tower-
We knew then it was no accident.
More than the fear, the overwhelming smell of smoke and destruction, and the looming uncertainty, I will remember how my New Yorkers and America united that day.
I was never more grateful to have my friends, who after that day, will forever be my family. We cried together. We comforted one another. We prayed. We told stories, which turned into much needed laughter.
On that day, we lost our innocents. Through it all, I had my friends, who from then on, I consider members of my family.
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
But I have to take it a step further, of course...
Now, I play a game to see if I can cross-off all of my "to do's" before 10 AM.
If I win, I get to cut work early and take a dip in the pool.
Today I claim victory!
Sure, I could be working on a plethora of important projects, but there's always tomorrow for that.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
I realize I'm just a microscopic piece of dust in the grand scheme of everything, but I was hoping you could just help me shine with the stars and the planets.
Somehow I've bounced out of alignment, and I really need to get back on track.
Oh, and I wouldn't mind if Mercury would stop going into retrograde (whatever that means) my friends keep telling me this is a major problem, and I don't give a shit.
Monday, September 8, 2014
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Friday, September 5, 2014
Until I remember that a shadier person created the loophole to be used!
What's that old saying? "Fake it, till you make it."
...and leverage everything you've got!
Thursday, September 4, 2014
Six of which I spend sleeping-
Which means I have eighteen usable hours in a day.
More than enough time to get shit done!
So I have two options really,
1. I can sit around and complain about what's not "working" for me.
2. I can get motivated, take action and make "it" happen.
Good talk, Matthew!
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
Is directly proportionate to the outcome.
Passion, detail and determination combined with pure hard work usually produces something powerful.
Hold onto the feeling of accomplishment. That, is success.
The praise and attention (which may or may not come) does not make something better, it's just the icing on an already delicious cake.
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
I can't start a work week on day two!
These unanswered phone calls aren't going to return themselves,
So it leaves me no choice, I have to do Monday's work today, and the first thing I do on Monday mornings is walk to Starbucks to ease my way back into the work week!
Monday, September 1, 2014
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Friday, August 29, 2014
Naturally when you're in school you dream about Friday-
Now, I struggle to get every single task done before the end of the week, and while doing so I lose all track of time.
It's Friday, and I have twenty projects to complete.
Where's an intern when you need one?
Oh, right- they're all off at some Happy Hour. The weekend starts early for twenty-year olds.
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Turn on cartoons,
Pour a bowl of bran flakes, add honey, cinnamon and soy milk;
Instant sugary sweet childhood sense memory, without the processed sugar and preservatives!
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
No matter how many times you audition and book (or don't book) the job-
The audition process is always a joyful torture.
On the one hand, you get to perform and be creative-
On the other, you are forced to "act" natural while people stare and judge your performance, and then cast you (or not) based on EVERYTHING other than your talent...
It's the life of a performer- and sometimes it sucks!
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Offered by friends, family and even enemies (depending on the circumstance.)
As I child, I HATED that short, but painfully truthful analysis of almost any situation:
Your best friend spreads a nasty rumor, "That's life."
Your dog gets hit by a car, "That's life."
Your second runner up in every category, "That's life."
However, when put into perspective, it is also a joyful reminder:
You published a book! "That's life."
You own a home. "That's life."
You sold a TV show! That's me projecting... But I hope soon enough I'll be saying to myself, "That's life!"
Outlook is everything!
Monday, August 25, 2014
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Saturday, August 23, 2014
It's called, being back in Los Angeles and trying to catch up on the life you put on pause.
Still, NO EXCUSES!
An artistic life, involves balance.
Friday, August 22, 2014
There's nothing better than walking into you home after being away for a long period of time.
The joy of being greeted by your family, my puppies give extra long cuddles.
The comfort of knowing where everything is in the kitchen.
But most of all, my BED!
I might actually get a full nights sleep tonight, for the first time in four weeks...
It's great to be home.
Crappy junk food,
Bugs flying at the windshield,
Spending too much money on gas,
Unclean rest stops.
Ah, the beauty of a road trip!
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Eager to see the cover of my first book, for the first time.
What started as a childhood dream-
Expanded into a practical idea,
That lead to a serious project,
Which evolved into a passion,
Finally manifesting into a book that I could not be more proud of.
I'm so excited!
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
However it's more rewarding to trust, love and take action.
I've experienced the outcome of negative and positive thoughts; without question, the positive energy always leads to a more rewarding outlook and subsequently a brighter result.
No matter the circumstance, there is power in recognizing we can manifest phenomenal things with Faith.
Monday, August 18, 2014
My soul wants to create,
My brain wants a challenge,
My OCD wants to take action,
But my heart NEEDS time: with my family, friends and myself.
I need to calm my thoughts, fears and desires, and remember how healing it is to sit in stillness and appreciate my surroundings.
Enlightenment comes through meditation.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Friday, August 15, 2014
As an adult, I can comprehend how extraordinary my parents are.
Growing up they gave me: discipline, guidance, support, unconditional love and the confidence to follow my passion; they continue to do so now. Moreover, they have become my friends.
When I feel like giving up, they're my coach-building me up.
If I need to cry, they provide a shoulder and words of wisdom to cheer me up.
When my ego takes over, they're there to remind me who I am.
When I need help, they continue to offer whatever they can.
I know how lucky I am, I count my blessings everyday.
I have a mom and dad that continue to be my number one fans, whether I'm teaching, performing, writing or working as a waiter; their love and pride is an example of true parenting.
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
After a successful week of teaching, choreographing, and laughing with old friends; it's time I leave NYC.
I'm delighted that I got to see my buddy star on Broadway, my bestie's company shine on stage and even pick up some fun new designer merchandise at the House of Lodes! (AKA my friends hand-me-downs.)
But like all great adventures, this too must end, and just in time- it's raining... And I hate summer rain in NYC!
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
His ability to bring joy in sadness, truth in comedy and energy to all was extraordinary! Very few people can make you cry while you're laughing and laugh while you're crying-
Robin Williams artistry will be missed.
Monday, August 11, 2014
Between the tourist, subway rides and distractions everywhere- even a trip to Starbucks feels like work.
The city is pulsing with creativity, energy and MONEY.
go, Go, GO! is the attitude here.
I had a massage, three Starbucks coffees, two rehearsals, a Broadway show and dinner all in one day!
It's a crazy adventure, but I'm ready to get back to LA.
These days yoga, a power meeting and an audition are more my speed.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Saturday, August 9, 2014
I'm ready to relax and enjoy a mimosa and brunch with good friends.
As soon as I can convince myself to get out of bed and hobble to the shower.
Friday, August 8, 2014
A NYC cafe full of people on their iSwippythings...
Posting, tagging, checking in-
But certainly not making contact with the friends sitting next to them.
I belong to a generation that has the best if both worlds.
I know how to Tweet a sassy thought, post an interesting photo and check-in to share my location to anyone interested (including the government).
Fortunately, I still remember how to UNPLUG!
Do the social media tech savvy children of our future even know what a handshake is? Or do the fist bump without looking up as the swipe to a new app?
Thursday, August 7, 2014
You can walk into a random Starbucks near Union Square and run into an old friend, (even though neither of you actually live in NYC anymore) and pick up right where you left off.
You can sit in a park and be approached by three complete strangers from three different countries, who are all in an English class-and they want to engage in conversation to better understand the language. (P.S. All three spoke better English than a third of the people who are actually born here.)
You can eat a three course meal at 1AM and nobody thinks anything of it.
But my favorite part, you can walk around any area of this city and gaze up and see no less than: 10 different types of architecture, 10 different ethnicities and 10 different styles of fashion-all while watching an uber wealthy stockbroker avoid eye contact with a homeless man.
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
My body is a twisted piece of crunched up muscle-
Aching all over from prolonged teaching.
How did those dancers keep up?
Oh, right- they're sixteen and I'm thirty-six!
When did that happen?
I might be in pain, but I'll never stop teaching.
...my leg just might not go as high.
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
It's like time stood still.
Sitting in the comfort of my old living room, laughing with my roommate;
Reminiscing about the past and catching up on the present.
I was a different person back then, I had yet to grow into myself.
She pointed out that I am comfortable in my new skin-
Yes, I am proud of the person I'm becoming. I've stayed true to my goals and dreams, and haven't given up on the idea that "it" will happen.
It IS happening!
A constant work in progress. Maybe I'll really discover who I am when I'm old and bald?
Monday, August 4, 2014
I hate waiting in lines!
It started at Disneyland when I was five-
And continues to torture me to this day.
Especially at the airport.
Boarding the plane...
rage. Rage. #RAGE!!!
Sunday, August 3, 2014
Saturday, August 2, 2014
Friday, August 1, 2014
Thursday, July 31, 2014
The really burdensome part of my job is that I have to wake up in a different city every week.
The really exhilarating part of my job is that I get to explore a new city every week.
Life is complicated. It's nice to maintain a positive perspective.
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
I figure the least I can do is share a happy memory.
As I was walking out of the hotel elevator after a very long day in the theatre last night, I was flooded with the aroma of hotel pool carpet and the buzzing of the ice machine in the alcove in the hallway.
I was instantly transported to my childhood; wonderful vacations with my family. Traveling with my grandmas and grandpas was such an adventure, and continues to be with the pair I'm blessed to have left.
It never mattered where we were going, or what we were doing, the love and laughter that surrounded me was overwhelming.
My family gave me the gift of confidence, Faith and unconditional love. I'm grateful to have that reminder today- life is short, so make it count.
Worry less about the "have nots" and remember the blessings.
Tuesday, July 29, 2014
(Although I do love a delicious breakfast blend in the morning!)
My day starts two hours before I'd like to admit.
In order to meet my daily goals, I find myself up before the rooster crows at dawn.
Oddly enough, I used to be a night owl but I realized I'm twice as productive in the morning.
So here I am attempting to be creative.
I've discovered that I may not always write a witty blog post, however the act of committing to a daily essay, poem, random thought or creative writing has encouraged me to invest in my growth as an artist and release the idea of perfection. Which will lead to more opportunity and success! (Hopefully.)
Monday, July 28, 2014
Let's be honest, traveling for work is as enjoyable as going to the dentist for a root-canal.
So when I wake up in a new city, and roll over in my somewhat lumpy and uncomfortable hotel-bed and watch the sunrise over a glistening lake and soaring mountains, I have to admit that I have a pretty awesome life.
My "office" is never in the same place for more than a week.
I get paid to see the world, and however exhausting travel can be-I still appreciate the perks!
Sunday, July 27, 2014
Saturday, July 26, 2014
Friday, July 25, 2014
Thursday, July 24, 2014
Wednesday, July 23, 2014
Reading through the script, making choices and preparing a character,
Running lines over and over, until you have it in your body,
Picking out the right clothes to convey the part,
Signing in and waiting in the lobby with twenty other guys that look JUST like you,
The awkward small talk in the casting office–then you slate your name and the scene begins and before you know it, your done...
Walk out feeling confident, you gave it your all and rocked it out!
Then, you wait. You try to forget about it. Every time it pops into your head you think, "Wouldn't that be awesome?"
But you let it go, and wait for the next audition.
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Monday, July 21, 2014
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Usually I'm waking up in a hotel bed in a random city across the country; getting ready to spend my day in a theatre.
So I'm taking advantage of this elusive day:
Breakfast in bed,
Walking to Starbucks with the puppies,
Hike in the Hollywood Hills,
Dinner with friends,
and finally a late night movie in bed!
I love Sundays in LA.
Saturday, July 19, 2014
It's not that I don't enjoy life on the road-I just HATE hotel beds.
Friday, July 18, 2014
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
The line for the Starbucks in our hotel lobby is longer than the Great Wall-
With as many annoying tourists!
How can you not know what you want?
You've been standing in line for twenty minutes! #OverIt!
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
It's like a fashion game for middle-class people.
You have enough money to buy a few nice things, so you have to figure out how to maximize the return..
I think I'm doing okay, but one quick look on my Instagram, might tell a different story.
Monday, July 14, 2014
Waves crashing faster,
No looking back now-I'm in to my waste.
The salty air was intoxicating,
Moonlight glistening across the horizon;
I love a midnight dip!
Sunday, July 13, 2014
Saturday, July 12, 2014
After a week of working out of town and a twelve hour travel day, I crashed last night.
Waking up to the smell of Kona coconut Hawaiian coffee and bacon is just one of the many perks to married life.
I'm so blessed that I found my soulmate-
Whether creating projects, exploring a new city while on vacation or lounging at home watching Saturday morning cartoons, I am the luckiest man alive.
Because I found a partner who inspires me to thrive!
Friday, July 11, 2014
Up at 5 AM.
Thank God for Starbucks.
The shuttle driver proceeds cautiously at a snails pace to the airport-
TSA is surprisingly short,
So is my first flight.
Connection in Denver (I wish I had time to see my family).
One day at home, then back on the road...
It's impossible to get enough sleep or look good.
Ah, the glamorous life!
Thursday, July 10, 2014
Wednesday, July 9, 2014
Choreographing in a hotel room,
Drafting a marketing and PR strategy for my new book,
Composing an email to my manager,
Coordinating a meeting with a TV network to pitch our TV pilot-
All on three hours of sleep.
So I'm pretty much living the dream!
Monday, July 7, 2014
Sunday, July 6, 2014
Saturday, July 5, 2014
I will spend half my time in and out of airports-
Thankfully my company decided to book me on several different airlines, so I won't be able to enjoy the benefits of airline-mileage programs. #Sarcasm
Additionally, I'm thrilled for the five-plus hour layovers I will get to enjoy.
Most of all, I'm excited for the lack of sleep I'll get between now and the middle of August!
Friday, July 4, 2014
Remember your vacation on Hawaii,
Close your eyes,
Visualize the calming sea,
Release the fears that are holding you back,
Trust in the plan that is set in motion,
And shut the F_@K up and get to work, (so that you can pay for that trip to Hawaii)!
Thursday, July 3, 2014
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
You wake up ready for another dream day, and remember you have to go to work-which can be more like a nightmare (depending on the day.)
Nevertheless, the holiday served it's purpose:
Rest, recharge and remember why you work so hard in the first place...
To enjoy time with family and friends in beautiful tropical destinations!
Life is short. Work hard. Play hard!
Tuesday, July 1, 2014
Monday, June 30, 2014
Sunday, June 29, 2014
Saturday, June 28, 2014
Friday, June 27, 2014
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
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Thursday, June 19, 2014
Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Monday, June 16, 2014
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Friday, June 13, 2014
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Forty-five minutes and fifteen attempts to sign-on later... I'm frustrated and over it!
I've said it before, and I'll say it again: I. HATE. TECHNOLOGY!
Wednesday, June 11, 2014
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Apparently the answer is YES!
One of my closest friends reached out to me yesterday,
"Don't take this the wrong way, but I've known you long enough to tell you, I think you need to take a break."
My journey feels more like a job than an adventure. I've been pushing myself to continue to create and stay motivated, that I discounted the idea that my mind and body need to rest, too.
After all, what's the point in working so hard, if I'm not going to give myself some time to sit back and enjoy the results?
Following the cover shoot for my book this week (which is TOTALLY EXCITING) I'm going to Hawaii-
A trip that was planned months ago, and I was actually dreading it. Until I realized, with the help of my friend, that EVERYONE needs some down time.
Hopefully in two weeks, I will come back recharged and inspired!
Monday, June 9, 2014
As much as I love the process of writing and shooting media, the energy and theatricality of a live performance will always be magical.
Because I don't already have enough to do... #Sarcasm.
I've decided to focus on finding the perfect opportunity to jeté back on stage. It's been so long since I've even auditioned for a musical, but I figure there's no time like the present.
Life is short. Set goals and work your ass off to accomplish them.
Sunday, June 8, 2014
Saturday, June 7, 2014
It's best not to look in the mirror.
Instead, avoid turning on lights, and jump into the shower.
Once you've allowed the water to warm your face (approximately 20 minutes) continue getting ready as normal.
Be prepared, you still might look like an alien, but at least the crust around your eyes will be softer!
Friday, June 6, 2014
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Wednesday, June 4, 2014
We all know opinions are like assholes- everyone has one. If you don't want to hear my feedback... don't ask for it. If you only want to hear positive critique then just say, "I don't really care for your thoughts, I just want to hear praise."
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
Monday, June 2, 2014
Airports are the worst aspect of life on the road.
Dealing with bitter, jaded, nasty airline employees suck.
I get it. You're tired of the endless parade of uneducated, uncivilized, overweight assholes who don't have a clue...
A. YOU chose this job.
B. and more important, I am not one of those people aforementioned.
So slap on a phony smile and take care of your customers.
Please and thanks (with a phony smile back!)
Sunday, June 1, 2014
I'm confronted with flashes of my past adventures;
There is a moment of panic,
That chapter has closed.
The end of every chapter, is the beginning of a new one.
I'm ready for a new adventure.
Saturday, May 31, 2014
Drama at the front desk- it's NO Holiday...
Four hours of sleep then off to the theatre,
Twelve hours of dancing, that's the gig!
Friday, May 30, 2014
Thursday, May 29, 2014
Wednesday, May 28, 2014
Tuesday, May 27, 2014
Slow yawns, then-
Drop, roll over and wait for belly rubs.
Harnesses on, they eagerly wait by the front door.
Once we're back from their morning walk,
They twirl for cookies,
Followed by a hop, circle dance to the food bowl (they each have their own special way of eating.)
Finally, with a full belly, they run to their doggy beds in the living room:
The yorkie, Ginger, soaks up the sun, while the shih tzu, Lily, lays around watching the squirrels outside.
It's a wonderful zen moment.
Monday, May 26, 2014
Sunday, May 25, 2014
Saturday, May 24, 2014
I don't have a corner office in trendy building in LA, but don't get it twisted...
I work seven days a week-
It's called the #HustleOfAnArtist.
Writing, organizing, storyboarding, re-writes, shooting, editing, posting, social media, networking, researching, teaching, judging, choreographing, gigging to pay the bills, etc.
True, I don't punch in on a time clock,
My hours never stop-
#AlwaysOnTheJob in order to succeed.
Friday, May 23, 2014
Thursday, May 22, 2014
Unintentionally, yet still painful.
Like life, friendships have cycles;
Sometimes we flow together, randomly we drift apart.
Finding comfort in the waves of emotion,
Trusting that true friends will float to the top.
Wednesday, May 21, 2014
Tuesday, May 20, 2014
Monday, May 19, 2014
I always have. Especially as a child-
Any of my energy that wasn't spent acting out skits for my family (or more-so for myself in front of a mirror) was exhausted in deep thought.
I overanalyzed, questioned and contemplated every detail of my life.
I concerned myself with how others might react to my decisions, and for the better part of my young adult life, I continued this pattern.
Allowing the actions or reactions from others, to dictate the way I communicated, planned or approached a situation.
Finally, after several life changing events, I made an epic self discovery: I am not responsible for how others react to my decisions. My choices are mine, and the only person I have to please, is myself.
Not out of selfishness, but rather full of self-respect.
I have strong opinions. I still overthink things and I'm highly critical of myself, however, I've managed to adopt a healthier outlook on pursuing my goals and finding balance in my life.
As an artist, I struggle with "the question" which I now call "checking in."
Should I continue to purse my goals?
This question that lingers over my head, is the primary reason I've committed myself to daily journaling and my creative writing on this blog. I'm dedicated to my growth as a person: mentally, physically, emotionally, artistically and spiritually. I want to live a balanced life- therefore, it is necessary for me to evolve in my ideas and adapted to the opportunities (and setbacks) that I am faced with.
I wouldn't continue to work my ass off every single day if I didn't believe that I am destined to achieve my goals.
I never thought about deadlines growing up. I just knew that I was going to "make it." As time passed and I got a little older, I began to see others giving themselves ultimatums and setting timelines. "If I don't [Fill in the blank] by my thirtieth birthday, then I will quit.
What's the point? If my goals are still real in my mind, then why on earth would I stop pursing them- especially after all of the time I've invested.
As long as I have a point of view that is uniquely mine, and the passion to share it- I'm going to fight to get it heard!
Allowing anything other than positive energy and Faith to motivate me, is an utter waste of time.
Saturday, May 17, 2014
I rarely get one off, but when I do...
Look out Sponge Bob, I'm watching you.
Breakfast in bed, followed by a long walk with the puppies.
After that, who knows what will happen.
I have no plans, and I don't care.
Friday, May 16, 2014
with a wonderful adventure planned-
Then, without waring, everything turns to SHIT!
Today, is one of those days!
After spending three hours on the phone dealing with a business matter that should have been resolved in ten minutes...
I missed my movie, a trip to the beach and the chance to have a delicious lunch with friends.
The worst part is, I'm so pissed off, I can't even move past it, to go forward and enjoy whats left of my DAY OFF!
#RAGE #Annoyed #ThatsLife #TRYINGtoRELEASE!!!
Thursday, May 15, 2014
Sitting outside in the valley heat,
Drinking my Starbucks iced coffee-
The puppies comfortably passed out in my lap.
I should be writing or returning calls,
But instead, I'm enjoying some me time (with a splash of social media), naturally.
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Auditions can be a painful experience-
The waiting room anxiety,
The fear that your going to hear something your not ready to learn about yourself,
The awkward “small talk”,
The naked vulnerability,
The only difference is that after the doctor, you leave with a lollypop!
Tuesday, May 13, 2014
Nevertheless, I force myself to sit in front of my computer screen searching for creativity.
I'll let you know when it arrives.
Monday, May 12, 2014
Carefully scrutinizing every word (with far more patience than I do this blog post), I hit send, only to see a typo-
Do I send an additional reply and comment on the silly mistake? Or do I let it ride and hope they understand?
How come networking takes so much work?
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Mom, you gave me life-
Even though I'm sure you wished you could take that back during my teenage years, I'm grateful you didn't!
Thank you for your unconditional love, support and faith in me and my dream.
You are the worlds best mom!
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Friday, May 9, 2014
rather than lamenting over the things that I want.
The advantage of celebrating my victories, however small, provides an energy that usually leads to unexpected adventures.
Laying around sulking, which inevitably lends itself to: overeating, weight-gain, complaining, a bitter attitude, a bleak outlook, depression and an overall lack of creativity.
Life is too short for that shit!
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Especially when it's your mom.
Watching as the car turns the corner and fades into the sea of traffic-
It's like a vacuum cleaner is sucking the laughter and unconditional love away from you.
Just like that, the suspended childhood-bond that emerges whenever she is near, gets ripped apart all over again.
My heart sinks and I realize, my life as an adult must continue.
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
You take it.
Eat all of it. (Regardless of how fat you already feel because all you've been doing for the past week is consuming calories of every kind.)
Then, you regret it the next morning and tell yourself you CAN lose ten pounds in two days.
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Monday, May 5, 2014
Especially one that they've invented that involves booze.
Margarita- rocks with salt.
Don't forget the chips and salsa. Guacamole, too!
It's Cinco de Mayo and I'm a partying fool.
Sunday, May 4, 2014
Saturday, May 3, 2014
Hustling for meetings, pitching your fabulous projects, relentless SELF-promotion;
You start to buy into the idea that you're only a success if you have two TV pilots in production, a movie deal with NBCUniversal, your own reality TV show and 10 BILLION followers on Instagram!
It's exhausting, but you're trapped into this belief that if you take a break you'll lose EVERYTHING!
When my mom comes to visit, I'm forced to STOP. Family reminds you that there are far more important things in life than how you look on camera. My loved ones knew me when I was just a little kid with a huge imagination and an enormous dream.
They continue to support my adventure, offering their love and encouragement.
I strive to live with balance in my life- Naturally, I'm not perfect. I do, however, fight to be a better person every day.
Therefore, in honor of my thirty-SOMETHING birthday, and my family in town I'm going to give myself the week off.
There will be plenty of time to conquer Hollywood next week, and if "Hollywood" forget who I am in a week, I'll just stage a "comeback" by checking myself into trendy rehab facility- I may have to do that anyway after this week!
Friday, May 2, 2014
Thursday, May 1, 2014
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
Change something small.
Get a haircut or try wearing something you have in your closet, but mix in a fresh new spin;
Little tweaks bring a fun new energy to your life.
If that doesn't work, close your eyes and remember all the huge things we take for granted, like: walking, talking, oh and breathing!
Monday, April 28, 2014
Sunday, April 27, 2014
And get that espresso machine turned on, because I'm coming for a triple latte and I don't have time to waste.
Another long day in the theatre requires a very caffeinated, me.
Saturday, April 26, 2014
You'd think with the bass pumping and dancers jumping it would be easy to stay awake,
But the heat from the stage lights calms the body.
Today is going to require an extra trip to Starbucks, lets just hope that three triple-shot lattés will do the trick!
Friday, April 25, 2014
Dismissing the thoughts and demands that I think society expects of me; it's vital to my success.
I refuse to get lost in a sea of doubt. Sure, it's easier to give into fear.
Taking action, however, has always served me well.
I don't know where my future will take me, but judging from my past, I imagine the adventures will be fun.
As I get older, it has become more tempting to abandon my optimistic nature-
How will that serve me? It won't.
Life is a journey; there will be mountains to climb and a lot of less-than-fair weather to overcome. Through each struggle, I will conquer new heights.
When I look back on my life, it will be the view from the peaks that I cherish.
Thursday, April 24, 2014
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Tuesday, April 22, 2014
Monday, April 21, 2014
Sunday, April 20, 2014
Saturday, April 19, 2014
Friday, April 18, 2014
Remove the doubt and take action!
Remove the doubt and take action!
Remove the doubt and take action!
Remove the doubt and take action!
[Repeat 15 more times]
Do this daily and you will be shocked how much more you can accomplish!
Thursday, April 17, 2014
Young or old, everyone has their swagger.
Swinging, swishing, hunched or pulled up-
Fast and furious, or
Slow and steady, both on a mission:
Coffee! Java. A cup-of-Joe
Creatures of habit. In need of caffeine, and socialization.
Starbucks is more than a coffee house, it's an anthropological classroom in the university of life.
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Monday, April 14, 2014
Awake, but not conscious.
Sitting at another airport sipping on a watered down soy latte from Starbucks.
Surrounded by a small group of regular travelers (I can tell by the roadmap that marks their face and zombie eyes.)
I feel like a member of The Breakfast Club! Only our group would be called The Sleepless, Worn-down, Tired of this Lifestyle BUT Grateful for A Job Club.
Instead of getting detention we get delayed!
Sunday, April 13, 2014
It's just that I'd rather not hear them at 3 AM while I'm trying to sleep...
Saturday, April 12, 2014
I want to sleep in, and slowly rise to the sound of cartoons and the blended aroma of coffee, bacon, and pancakes.
I'd casually roll myself out of bed, with my down comforter wrapped around my entire body, plop down on the sofa and drift in and out of sleep between shoving a piece of crisp salty pork in my mouth.
Eventually I'd decided to wake-up with a hot shower (around noon) and convince myself to get outside-
Maybe I'd go for a walk to Starbucks with the puppies and spend another hour or soaking up the sun.
Finally, I'd be ready to meet up with friends for an afternoon movie, followed by dinner and maybe a dance club?
But instead, I'll hurry and write in my journal, compose my morning blog, do my daily stretching, rush to get my social media fix, jump in the shower and throw on clothes, with enough time to grab a crappy hotel coffee, shove a Cliff bar down my mouth and make my way to sit in a theatre for twelve hours judging performers without a break!
Friday, April 11, 2014
I haven't decided which is worse:
The actual embarrassment of talking to people with a lisp and a mouth full of metal.
The actual sores on my tongue from having the retainer in my mouth all day!
Thursday, April 10, 2014
Wednesday, April 9, 2014
Tuesday, April 8, 2014
Monday, April 7, 2014
Spending time with the people I love;
Laughing a lot and eating more!
Italian passion is wrapped in emotions- AKA calories.
My family is crazy, hilarious, loud and opinionated.
Despite the moody moments, our quality time was filled with joy.
Highlight: wonderful one-on-one time with my sister and my beautiful niece.
(The first vacation with my sister since high school!)
The time is near to say our goodbyes.
When I was a kid, that meant a lot of tears.
As an adult, I value the time I have and look forward to the next one!
Hopefully sooner than later.
I love my family.
Sunday, April 6, 2014
Saturday, April 5, 2014
Friday, April 4, 2014
I used to change her diapers.
Now, I'm changing out her empty beer cans.
My entire family is in Las Vegas to celebrate the epic event.
I choose the word "epic" because twenty-five family members in the same city, sharing the same hotel, drinking and celebrating has it's fireworks!
Nevertheless, we partied until 1 AM,
Shelby, my cousin, was still standing at the end of the night, too.
Never mind the fact that she was being held up by her boyfriend and her mom.
Yep, that's how we roll in our family.
Through life's ups and downs, my family will rally to make sure you're always on your feet.
(...and heavily polluted!)
Thursday, April 3, 2014
Wednesday, April 2, 2014
Tuesday, April 1, 2014
Get up and do it.
In life we always have choices, but the only thing that's going to make your dream a reality is: Action!
Monday, March 31, 2014
As I get older and I'm blessed with each new day on this earth, I appreciate the opportunities that I've had-
My past is a reminder to continue living in the present and release the idea of what my future "should be."
Setting goals and working towards them, always mindful that I will experience everything I "need" to, when I'm meant to.
Adventure only comes to those who are open to change and unexpected circumstances.
I have Faith that my path will lead me where I'm most prepared for the journey.
Sunday, March 30, 2014
Flying is rough, especially the TSA nonsense.
Occasionally I have the opportunity to see friends that I've made over the course of my career.
Last night I enjoyed a delicious dinner, and even more exceptional conversation with two of my favorite dance colleagues.
I woke up (too early) and rather than hating this aspect of my job, I reminded myself that with all of the downfalls, this job has its perks, too!
Life is all in the outlook.
I choose to find the gratitude this morning.
Now, I'm off to spend fourteen hours in a theatre, I'm still searching for the positive affirmation on that one!
Saturday, March 29, 2014
(Which is every weekend.)
It's nice, because instead of hearing the same exploited, unverified, inaccurately reported "news" is when CNN is recapping everything they got wrong throughout the week.
Friday, March 28, 2014
Thursday, March 27, 2014
As an artist I'm always trying to evolve and reinvent myself-
Thanks to social media, you have to create new content on a daily basis.
I miss the good ol' days when you just had to have one successful project every few months and people were satisfied.
Now I know how Madonna must feel!