Friday, January 30, 2015
Thursday, January 29, 2015
Worrying about the extra five pounds of blubber I'm carrying around my waist on the other hand is something that needs addressed ASAP!
Seriously in need of FOOD detox.
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
The sky is dark,
No traffic on the road,
And the rooster hasn't crowed;
It's just me with my thoughts and dreams.
They are still safe and I'm full of hope,
The harsh realities of life will kick in soon enough––but for now, I'm going to soak up my Faith.
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
Monday, January 26, 2015
Sunday, January 25, 2015
Enough is enough. The tree is down, the holidays are over;
Time to reduce the waist line.
For real. Say "no" to In & Out Burger...
It's time to get healthy again!
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Is what I have to tell myself every morning I have to wake up at 5AM to go to work.
Staying out of debt is even more fun!
Is what I need to remind myself every time I plan a trip to Hawaii.
Thankfully, I get to work in a profession I love––if only I didn't have to be up at the butt-crack of dawn.
Friday, January 23, 2015
God, it's good to be a dog.
Unless you're one of those dogs at a kill shelter; then it would really suck.
Thursday, January 22, 2015
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
The Holidays are over but I'm still caring around a Christmas package;
Six pounds of goodies around my belly, back and face to be exact!
I noticed our neighbors still have their Christmas tree up, it's January 21st––seriously take down the tree, and take off the weight!
Okay, I'm glad I had this pep talk with myself.
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
Monday, January 19, 2015
Sunday, January 18, 2015
My favorite viewing place is a hotel room (similar to the room I'm in now) because I never feel guilty spending hours laying in bed laughing with my friends.
The Golden Girls to the gays is like anything on ESPN to guys.
I've seen every episode at least three times, but just like a conversation with my gram, I find new wisdom and humor each time.
Thank you Hallmark for being a friend.
Whether you like it or not, you're making gay men everywhere smile.
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Thursday, January 15, 2015
I'm confused––are we supposed to honor and salute people based on their race, religion or sexual orientation versus their talent, ability or performance?
I understand that people get frustrated at the lack of diversity. It's an undeniable reality of the world we live in, even still in the 21st century.
There is important, quality work being produced everywhere which celebrates every walk of life––perhaps if we focus our attention on that creative energy and "tweet" or get loud from a positive point of view, more people will listen and take note.
I just don't understand perpetuating negative. It's been a long time since I had a math class, but two negatives do not equal a positive, right?
Wednesday, January 14, 2015
Off to the "day job" (which I must admit, I'm so grateful it's not in the retail or food industry). #Choreographer
Then back on set! Which is my favorite place in the world to be, even if it means sitting in dirt until they call action.
Tuesday, January 13, 2015
Monday, January 12, 2015
Other times, it's as tough as a steak at Sizzler to dream up a topic.
The point of a daily creative writing, is to maintain the focus and habit.
So here I sit at my computer without a clue as to what I'm talking about.
Rambling senselessly like many of the winners of last nights Golden Globe awards.
Perhaps that is why I'm without a spark––aside from Tina and Amy's perfectly timed dazzling display of wit, snark and intelligence. The show was boring and uninspired.
Proving that everybody has "off days" even in Hollywood.
Sunday, January 11, 2015
Hollywood's hottest A-list stars walk the red carpet;
Diamonds, sequins and stilettos––and that's just for Ryan Seacrest.
The rest of the divas are all in their hotel rooms surrounded by stylists.
Who will win?
Who will lose?
Who will get too drunk and act like a total ass?
I can't wait to find out.
Let the fashion, speeches and closeted men pretending to be straight begin!
Saturday, January 10, 2015
Friday, January 9, 2015
Thursday, January 8, 2015
Wednesday, January 7, 2015
I'm so thrilled––only seven days into the new year and I scored a huge gig.
Another reminder that life (and God) will lead you down an unseen path, just when you thought the journey had ended.
Today I am grateful!
Tuesday, January 6, 2015
Monday, January 5, 2015
Sunday, January 4, 2015
My niece is full of personality, and clever, too.
(Which is a lethal combination!)
Even as an actor, I forget the power of imagination––never fear, a four year old will reignite the sense of play faster than Olaf will melt in Nevada!
My niece also has the power to charm me into a galloping horse; and no matter how many times I say, "this is the last time, okay?" She looks up at me with her gorgeous blue eyes and electric smile and says (in the most adorable voice possible), "just one more time?"
Naturally, I concede despite the fact that my back feels like it's going to break in half, and my knees feel like a racing horse after ten years at the Kentucky Derby!
I just remind myself how lucky I am that she remembers me and wants to spend time with me––regardless of the fact that I live a thousand miles away, and see her only every few months in person, and weekly on FaceTime. (Thank god for #Apple iPhone!)
Saturday, January 3, 2015
Bonding over a warm caffeinated beverage in the Colorado cold is the ideal way to share our lives.
Exchanging victories, laughing about old memories and comforting one another on losses and setbacks.
My mom and dad have always been my heroes.
Their support, leadership, knowledge and love have guided me from childhood to adulthood; and I continue to learn and laugh with them every opportunity I get.
My dad and I spent our mornings sharing stories on the way to school.
My mom and I have been addicted to Starbucks and social hour just as long...
For me, it's the simple joy of sitting down with either of them and getting to know them; not as mom or dad––but as people with vibrant backstories.
Sure, we could bond just as easily at home, but there's something about a cup of "joe" that makes the moment that much stronger!
Friday, January 2, 2015
Thursday, January 1, 2015
I regard every new year as a fresh start. A new chapter in my book, just waiting for adventure and self-discovery.
Some years there is character development, and sometimes there's nothing but vanity and wild exploration.
Regardless, my journey continues to spark a wiser, more understanding and well-rounded hero.
I have no clue what 2015 holds in store for me, but if it's anything like the past thirty-six years, I will be utterly satisfied and overwhelmed with Faith, love, happiness and success.
I'm ready to say goodbye to ideas that no longer serve me––making space for wonderful new adventures!
Wednesday, December 31, 2014
Tuesday, December 30, 2014
I realize how blessed I am.
For no other reason than the simple fact that I have friends and family who share their blessings with me.
2014 has been a year of growth.
It wasn't always easy, nor was it a year full of major victories.
At times I felt like I was in a holding pattern–– every hurdle was twice as high and road blocks kept me changing the course.
I punished myself for things that were out of my control.
I was angry that I couldn't do more. (A common theme in my life, and a curse that I'm hoping to "resolve" in the New Year.)
I accomplished obstacles that had once been forgotten goals:
going back to school, getting back into acting classes, finding a way (and the time) to stay in yoga.
As with every year, I laughed. Not nearly enough this year, but that will also be a challenge for 2015.
Loss, sadness and guilt were a major part of 2014. More than any other year in my life that I can remember.
It's time to let it go. Saying goodbye is extremely difficult and painful.
However, I've tortured myself enough, and in order to grow––I must forgive myself.
Life is too short, and I have a brightness in me that deserves the opportunity to shine. (We all do.)
So here's a salute to a year of learning, and to the year ahead, may it bring the evolution and opportunity I'm ready for!
Monday, December 29, 2014
Anything's possible on vacation in Beaver Creek-
With two feet of fresh snow and only 10 degrees,
Even with my long underwear, it's going to be freezing cold.
As fun as spending a day frolicking in the bone chilling cold sounds...
I'm really looking forward to the "adult" hot chocolate that I'll be enjoying afterwards!
P.S. When is Starbucks going to get hip to #alcohol?
Sunday, December 28, 2014
I shouldn't buy that watch. ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't jump off a cliff. ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't have another drink. ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't eat another cookie. ...but I'm on vacation.
Seriously, I wonder how many people lie, cheat and steal while on vacation.
I'd be more creative with this blog entry. ...but I'm on vacation.
Saturday, December 27, 2014
Friday, December 26, 2014
Thursday, December 25, 2014
Wednesday, December 24, 2014
Christmas exploded everywhere... And. I. Love. It!
Not a corner is left without something red and green,
The stockings are hung on the fireplace with care, and I hope that tomorrow they'll be stuffed with more than just air.
I'm so grateful for my family and friends,
And to spend this evening in our home with loved ones, AND our puppies feels like...
Faith, Family, Friends, and Food.
Ho, Ho, Ho!
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Monday, December 22, 2014
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Just like when we were kids.
Selfish, defensive, screaming-
I won't play them.
So now I have to accept that my relationship will no longer be a priority.
I'm devastated and I know I'll miss her,
But I can't handle the rage, or the fact that I'm always the one to concede, without an apology.
Life isn't always fair, this is a major loss.
Saturday, December 20, 2014
Friday, December 19, 2014
Expanding my career opportunities involves a nonstop hustle,
That does not consist of punching a time-clock.
Instead, I'm punching keys on my laptop; day in and day out.
Regardless of the hour, I keep on working.
Thankfully, I make the rules- and today, I'm taking an early lunch!
AKA I'm leaving the office early, and may not come back until after the holiday!
...or at least that's the goal.
Thursday, December 18, 2014
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
If I didn't know better, I'd think I was in New York...
It's not supposed to rain in LA!
In the midst of the "worst drought ever".
I guess we should consider this a gift from Santa,
I wouldn't mind the rain so much, if it didn't totally reck my hair.
Tuesday, December 16, 2014
Monday, December 15, 2014
Sunday, December 14, 2014
Saturday, December 13, 2014
Friday, December 12, 2014
Thursday, December 11, 2014
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
Tuesday, December 9, 2014
Monday, December 8, 2014
Sunday, December 7, 2014
Saturday, December 6, 2014
Honestly, I'm not in my twenties and it is not 2007- so I think it's time to back away from the social media platform...
Plus, that will give me more time for Instagram, Twitter and Vine.
Friday, December 5, 2014
And then there are those circumstances where you realize, failure is unavoidable...
I am an incredibly willful person; I don't believe in giving up.
I also don't believe in clinging to an idea that has already imploded.
So I wipe the tears from my eyes, and throw down the towel.
Thursday, December 4, 2014
Wednesday, December 3, 2014
Going to yoga the next morning is like my apology for betraying my passion and profession.
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
Monday, December 1, 2014
That's the challenge!
You can do it... is what I'm telling myself while looking at my gut in the mirror.
Sunday, November 30, 2014
I suppose that's what happens when you enjoy a Thanksgiving-four-day-feast-athon without even thinking about working out, or going to a gym.
In fact, the only exercise I got this past weekend was:
Opening wine bottles,
Lifting food and drink from table to mouth,
Racing through the mall on Black Friday for outrageous deals,
And a lot of laughter with friends...
Sadly, that was not enough to keep my waistline trim-
So today, it's time to reel it in!
Saturday, November 29, 2014
Friday, November 28, 2014
Thursday, November 27, 2014
But at this time of year the joy and gratitude overwhelm me.
No matter the distance, I continue to absorb the love from the family and friends who continue to support and inspire me.
Gathered around the television watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, while the smell of turkey and stuffing saturate the air- just one of the childhood memories that I continue to enjoy today.
Loved ones pass and friends move on, but the spirit of Thanksgiving carries beyond.
#Blessed and #Grateful
Wednesday, November 26, 2014
Tuesday, November 25, 2014
Monday, November 24, 2014
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Saturday, November 22, 2014
Friday, November 21, 2014
Thursday, November 20, 2014
Seriously, I've hated assigned group activities since my first experience with them in Mrs. Oberwater's 3rd grade class.
There's always one person, generally an overachieving perfectionist who does all of the work (me), three or four people who just sit around with a blank stare, and one person who's only contribution is to complain about every decisions made, and take credit for the project in the end.
It's not that I don't believe in team work, I just prefer to associate myself with a team of people that I can count on!
Wednesday, November 19, 2014
Lost in a giant screen full of beautiful characters.
Reclining velvet seats.
And all for only $32 a ticket!?
But getting caught up in the magic is worth every penny!
Tuesday, November 18, 2014
Monday, November 17, 2014
But I cannot resist your glossy hard outer shell and warm doughy insides.
Even without cream cheese, you rock my world.
Please do me a favor, stay away from my love-handles and booty, and I will continue to savor you every morning from now until the end of time.
Sunday, November 16, 2014
Saturday, November 15, 2014
Friday, November 14, 2014
Thursday, November 13, 2014
Wednesday, November 12, 2014
Tuesday, November 11, 2014
Monday, November 10, 2014
Posted my #SocialMedia,
Two conference calls,
Returned twenty emails,
Mailed the final proofs for my book, back to my publisher,
Rehearsed an audition,
Choreographed for my next master class,
And finished my creative writing...
All before 10AM!
(You should see what my mid-day looks like!)
Sunday, November 9, 2014
Especially at an International airport-
Europeans are always well dressed and smell good.
Asians are always quite and efficient.
Americans are always poorly dressed, loud and eating something.
These are all generalizations, of course.
Still, I find it crazy that in every culture, young and old, EVERYONE is plugged into a power source... or desperately searching for an outlet!
Saturday, November 8, 2014
Friday, November 7, 2014
Thursday, November 6, 2014
Wednesday, November 5, 2014
Tuesday, November 4, 2014
My Gram was an extremely active woman in our community. She never needed to push an agenda, but had a magnificent way of encouraging anyone who she came in contact with of their right and responsibility to be involved in the world they live.
My grandpa continues to be an activist. He served as the County Commissioner in his town, and I'm proud to say that during my first election in 1996- I was able to vote for him!
Ever since- I have been eager to research and elect people that I believe really want to make a difference in public office.
Naturally it's easy to become agitated or repulsed by career politicians and the media pushing agendas on either side of the aisle.
But a voice inside of me remembers that we are fortunate to live in a country where we have the right to speak up and vote.
Whether you think your vote matters or not- we need to remember that there are so many places in the world where citizens are not free and don't even have the option to submit their "illusion of a choice" so I never take for granted my obligation as a proud citizen of the United States of America.
Monday, November 3, 2014
Sunday, November 2, 2014
I'm positive that there are people who have "Starbucks Red Cup Day" marked on their calendars.
The Gingerbread Latte evokes the spirit of the holidays.
My first sip of Christmas in a cup came during a lunch break during rehearsals for the Radio City Christmas Spectacular in New York City. I was with a group of performers strolling through Rockerfeller Center. We were tired and needed a pick-me-up. I broke my usual (twice a day) habit of ordering a Grande Mocha, to try the new festive drink. Trust me, I spent more money on Starbucks coffee, than I did on rent in my NYC studio apartment during my twenties! (If only I had that money now.)
I haven't looked back since.
Every holiday season since, I eagerly await the day I can order a taste of Christmas past.
After all, isn't that what we're buying into?
It's commercialism at it's finest. If you're longing for family, friends or the childhood memories that never existed- look no further than Starbucks.
I promise one sip of their custom holiday specialty drinks will fill you with warmth and happiness!
Saturday, November 1, 2014
Friday, October 31, 2014
Thursday, October 30, 2014
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
Such a simple word, to describe an act that is so loaded with emotion.
Someone is leaving.
Will they comeback? Will you see them again? Won't you miss them? Won't they miss me?
We use the word goodbye so casually, it feels like we should have a more appropriate word for a longtime send-off.
See. Doesn't that feel like more than "goodbye"?
But I have no choice. My mom is leaving, and I have to say something; so I guess it will be thank you and goodbye, followed with a long hug.
Until next time!
Tuesday, October 28, 2014
...the one you through away in your mid-twenties because you were so ready to move on!
Monday, October 27, 2014
Similar to those you see at amusement parks and touristy vacation destinations.
My mom is seriously addicted to sugary treats, and though I usually stay away from all things high fructose corn syrup related, I'm totally guilty of shoving at least a pound of Sour Patch Kids down my mouth!
They taste so good going in, and then I feel like shit.
It's how I imagine Honey Boo Boo child feels daily.
Which is why starting first thing tomorrow I'm getting rid of the junk.
Wait, Halloween is Friday?
Starting first thing Saturday, I'm getting rid of the junk!
Sunday, October 26, 2014
Nevertheless, men still have necessary maintenance routines in order to avoid being labeled a caveman.
For example, no one ever told me when I was a young boy that I would have to trim my back hair and tweeze my nose hair when I grew up!
But the most annoying grooming gripe is by far shaving!
Razor burn, knick's, dry skin and ingrown hairs are enough to make me rage.
Because if I don't shave every single morning- I get acne!
So I'm left with the decision: close shave or pizza face?
Saturday, October 25, 2014
Friday, October 24, 2014
It's been twelve years (yes I dated myself) since I've taken a pop quiz;
Last night in my Business Entertainment class, our instructor surprised us with a test.
I knew every answer on the test, but in true Shaffer style- I heard the word "test" and I froze.
I dislike being tested.
Ask me to have a conversation, and I can tell you everything you want to know. Better yet, ask me to apply what we've learned, and I will shine!
I am a classic overachiever, and my need for perfection always hurts me in situations where there's a piece of paper with a series of questions and a time limit to answer.
I always over-think everything.
In the end I only missed two questions, but I want perfection.
I want an A-Plus every time.
Oh well, there's always the next one.
Thursday, October 23, 2014
Wednesday, October 22, 2014
Tuesday, October 21, 2014
Unconditional love and support, aside- the members of my family are wild, crazy, and passionate. They all have big personalities, too.
Especially my mom.
Whether we hang out at home watching movies and eating popcorn or go on a lavish shopping spree at the mall, the bonding time is irreplaceable.
Now that I'm an adult, I appreciate my family more than ever-
I realize I would be lost without them.
Even when they piss me off, I'd still rather spend my time with them than almost anyone else.
...I said almost.
Monday, October 20, 2014
I'm delighted to share the official press release for my new book, So You Want To Be A Dancer!
It's official. I'm an author.
Sunday, October 19, 2014
Saturday, October 18, 2014
Ready to release their bladder and smell the new scents on their morning walk.
The cookie dance, which involves twisting and twirling in circles when we get back-
These dogs are so predictable...
Take them on a morning walk, give them a few cookies and some dog food and water, and they give us unconditional love!
Friday, October 17, 2014
Thursday, October 16, 2014
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
it's no surprise that you have to shame people into "Following" or "Liking" you back.
Sadly, some people get so caught up in their own self-promotion, that they forget to support their friends back.
The worst part is, it cost nothing!
...Except your ego.
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
Monday, October 13, 2014
It all started when I was a young child. I suffered from painful earaches, which lead me to rubbing my ears uncontrollably until their was a scab, and naturally I would continue to pick at the scab.
It was a brutal cycle of self-abuse, just when the infected wound would heal, I'd dig right back in.
As a teenager, the nightmare continued with the onset of acne! I was like a migrant worker farming for zits.
Once I discovered Retin-A and puberty had calmed down, so did my obsession for picking...
At my skin anyway. What I've come to realize is, as an adult I continue to pick--at problems.
I will pick away at a question or project until I cause a full gash in the situation, thus forcing me to deal with the larger dilemma at hand.
I'm not proud of this dirty little habit, alas any good picker knows, once you start, the scar never leaves!
Sunday, October 12, 2014
Saturday, October 11, 2014
Friday, October 10, 2014
Thursday, October 9, 2014
But sometimes you just have to settle for "good."
Life is short; spend time on the things you are passionate about, and everything else, get it done and move on!
Wednesday, October 8, 2014
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
Monday, October 6, 2014
Mondays are always rough.
Full of eagerness-
But lacking the motivation to conquer.
Maybe another cup of coffee will help?
If you can't find motivation, find caffeine!
Sunday, October 5, 2014
Saturday, October 4, 2014
Friday, October 3, 2014
We've all heard it before, and nobody wants to hear it when they're receiving bad news or suffering a loss.
However, I'm a firm believer in a higher power- call it God, The Universe or the collective spirit of humanity, I don't believe in coincidence.
I'm always thrilled and hopeful when I begin a new journey, and I encounter a person who knows me or I receive an opportunity based on my past life experience.
It's a little reminder that this world is small, and the entertainment industry is even smaller.
It also validates the decision I made to experience a new venture. I trust my instincts, but I believe in God, and in moments when a "coincidence" transpires, I'm calm because I know I'm right where I'm meant to be.
Thursday, October 2, 2014
Wednesday, October 1, 2014
I enjoy being busy. Actually, I prefer it. However, I think I could do a better job at finding the balance-
Rather than looking back on an event thinking, Oh- that was fun, I wish I wasn't so overwhelmed at the time.
I'd like to find a moment in the thick of it to stop, take a look around and appreciate the process.
I'm not afraid of time passing, but time lost, is life lost.
I refuse to miss out on my life.
So today in the hurricane of auditions, meetings, appointments and errands- I'm going to remember the most important job: taking care of me.
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
I always thought I'd grow up faster, especially because I was wearing three-piece suits as a nine year old. But something shifted for me when I got to high school. I decided it was okay to be young, wild, creative and free...
I guess that's what happens when you're a performer attending a performing arts high school.
I'm happy that I had those crazy adventures in Chicago, Europe and New York City, however it wasn't until I moved back to Los Angeles when I realized, I'm ready to start living an adult life.
I don't miss the parking pass; carry (four months worth of) your dirty laundry to a laundry mat; only eat out during Happy Hour, hours part of my life.
I may not be the next Hollywood heartthrob, but I have an awesome life and a fabulous career doing what I love.
And today, that just feels awesome.
I'd still like to take the day off, and go to Disneyland though.
Monday, September 29, 2014
Taking that first step in any direction is hard, however it will help motivate the spirt into action.
Action equals results.
So my choices today:
Sit around waiting for a phone to ring.
Pick up the phone and start ringing-up some potential opportunities.
The only way to succeed, is by going after what you want!
Sunday, September 28, 2014
Sometimes standing on principle just pisses people off.
You have to ask yourself,
Do I want to be right?
Why do I give a F_ck?
If the goal is to prove a point, take a less passive-aggressive approach-
Articulate your case and move on!
Saturday, September 27, 2014
I started sending out emails looking for leads,
I just wanted to stay active in between promoting my book and choreographing and teaching master classes on the weekends.
It's not that I wasn't pleased with my time for yoga, socializing with friends and catching up on a lot of reality TV-
My mind just needs distractions.
Well, low and behold, I received responses from all of my outreach, and now I'm over-booked and have no time to breathe.
Be careful what you wish for!
I'd finish this blog post, but I don't have
Friday, September 26, 2014
There's no time to play!
Unless you work your ass off to shit done, so that you can sneak away from work to go to a Friday Happy Hour and a date night movie...
Thursday, September 25, 2014
How do you get out?
You cause a bigger storm, and level the playing field...
Then you move to a new state. Or peer group!
Wednesday, September 24, 2014
...is what I repeat as I peel myself from my bed with my eyes glued shut.
As a classic overachiever I set high expectations. I refuse to fail because I didn't work hard enough.
I've come to the decision that I will do everything in my power to accomplish my goals in life-
If that means a 6 AM wake-up call, then so be it.
The only thing more annoying than an early morning wake-up call, is not succeeding because I was too lazy.
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
I believe in standing by my colleagues during conflict-
Defending them and our relationship.
But in business, I'm learning that sometimes you have to cut that cord.
It can be painful, but it's more devastating to go down with a burning ship that never gave you your own cabin anyway.
Monday, September 22, 2014
I've blogged this before, and I'll blog it again, because it is a reminder that continues to evade me from time to time.
Once I remember that I can release the shitty circumstances and reinvent my outlook, I seem to thrive.
So, I'll ask myself this question:
Why the f_ck would I choose to make life any harder?
Dump that nonsense and move on!
Sunday, September 21, 2014
Leave it to LA to turn it into a competitive, catty environment with strobe lights and club beats...
I am so NOT down with that dog!
Saturday, September 20, 2014
The Hollywood socialites are fast asleep. While the overachieving fitness fanatics are sprinting past the homeless man that sits outside, eagerly awaiting an act of kindness from a European tourist.
Meanwhile, I stand in a line thirty-people-deep for my first Pumpkin Spice Latte of the year.
Starbucks is the McDonalds of the 21st Century.
And just like my elementary years with the Value Meal No. 2, I am #addicted!
Friday, September 19, 2014
Thursday, September 18, 2014
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Until they dumped Rosie for a Republican schmoe,
This season returns with a new logo, a new set and a new Republican, too!
But, I'm back on board for the Rosie times TWO!
Monday, September 15, 2014
Everywhere you look there is a stack of something gross and crusty.
Half-eaten containers of food underneath furniture.
Overflowing trash bin.
Board game remnants strewn about.
And a funky smell fills the air... What is that? It's nothing that was prepared by me!
Sunday, September 14, 2014
Saturday, September 13, 2014
Friday, September 12, 2014
Life is full of ups and downs. Especially in the entertainment industry.
I fight to maintain my disgustingly positive energy, even in the midst of a dry-spell or a shitstorm!
Everything seemed so much easier in my twenties.
Now, I actually have to give myself a pep-talk to get to yoga, class or a meeting...
I guess that's what happens when you hit thirty- you allow the reality of reality to sink in.
Well, I have a choice. I refuse to be a bitter thirty-something complainer-
I'm ready for my next adventure. But the only way that's happening is with the motivation to get up off my ass and do something about it.
Thursday, September 11, 2014
I woke up to the sound of crying, my roommate had been up earlier than I, and saw the first plane fly into the World Trade tower.
We watched in horror as the second plane flew into the second tower-
We knew then it was no accident.
More than the fear, the overwhelming smell of smoke and destruction, and the looming uncertainty, I will remember how my New Yorkers and America united that day.
I was never more grateful to have my friends, who after that day, will forever be my family. We cried together. We comforted one another. We prayed. We told stories, which turned into much needed laughter.
On that day, we lost our innocents. Through it all, I had my friends, who from then on, I consider members of my family.
Wednesday, September 10, 2014
But I have to take it a step further, of course...
Now, I play a game to see if I can cross-off all of my "to do's" before 10 AM.
If I win, I get to cut work early and take a dip in the pool.
Today I claim victory!
Sure, I could be working on a plethora of important projects, but there's always tomorrow for that.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
I realize I'm just a microscopic piece of dust in the grand scheme of everything, but I was hoping you could just help me shine with the stars and the planets.
Somehow I've bounced out of alignment, and I really need to get back on track.
Oh, and I wouldn't mind if Mercury would stop going into retrograde (whatever that means) my friends keep telling me this is a major problem, and I don't give a shit.
Monday, September 8, 2014
Sunday, September 7, 2014
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Friday, September 5, 2014
Until I remember that a shadier person created the loophole to be used!
What's that old saying? "Fake it, till you make it."
...and leverage everything you've got!
Thursday, September 4, 2014
Six of which I spend sleeping-
Which means I have eighteen usable hours in a day.
More than enough time to get shit done!
So I have two options really,
1. I can sit around and complain about what's not "working" for me.
2. I can get motivated, take action and make "it" happen.
Good talk, Matthew!
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
Is directly proportionate to the outcome.
Passion, detail and determination combined with pure hard work usually produces something powerful.
Hold onto the feeling of accomplishment. That, is success.
The praise and attention (which may or may not come) does not make something better, it's just the icing on an already delicious cake.
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
I can't start a work week on day two!
These unanswered phone calls aren't going to return themselves,
So it leaves me no choice, I have to do Monday's work today, and the first thing I do on Monday mornings is walk to Starbucks to ease my way back into the work week!
Monday, September 1, 2014
Sunday, August 31, 2014
Saturday, August 30, 2014
Friday, August 29, 2014
Naturally when you're in school you dream about Friday-
Now, I struggle to get every single task done before the end of the week, and while doing so I lose all track of time.
It's Friday, and I have twenty projects to complete.
Where's an intern when you need one?
Oh, right- they're all off at some Happy Hour. The weekend starts early for twenty-year olds.
Thursday, August 28, 2014
Turn on cartoons,
Pour a bowl of bran flakes, add honey, cinnamon and soy milk;
Instant sugary sweet childhood sense memory, without the processed sugar and preservatives!
Wednesday, August 27, 2014
No matter how many times you audition and book (or don't book) the job-
The audition process is always a joyful torture.
On the one hand, you get to perform and be creative-
On the other, you are forced to "act" natural while people stare and judge your performance, and then cast you (or not) based on EVERYTHING other than your talent...
It's the life of a performer- and sometimes it sucks!
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Offered by friends, family and even enemies (depending on the circumstance.)
As I child, I HATED that short, but painfully truthful analysis of almost any situation:
Your best friend spreads a nasty rumor, "That's life."
Your dog gets hit by a car, "That's life."
Your second runner up in every category, "That's life."
However, when put into perspective, it is also a joyful reminder:
You published a book! "That's life."
You own a home. "That's life."
You sold a TV show! That's me projecting... But I hope soon enough I'll be saying to myself, "That's life!"
Outlook is everything!
Monday, August 25, 2014
Sunday, August 24, 2014
Saturday, August 23, 2014
It's called, being back in Los Angeles and trying to catch up on the life you put on pause.
Still, NO EXCUSES!
An artistic life, involves balance.
Friday, August 22, 2014
There's nothing better than walking into you home after being away for a long period of time.
The joy of being greeted by your family, my puppies give extra long cuddles.
The comfort of knowing where everything is in the kitchen.
But most of all, my BED!
I might actually get a full nights sleep tonight, for the first time in four weeks...
It's great to be home.
Crappy junk food,
Bugs flying at the windshield,
Spending too much money on gas,
Unclean rest stops.
Ah, the beauty of a road trip!
Wednesday, August 20, 2014
Eager to see the cover of my first book, for the first time.
What started as a childhood dream-
Expanded into a practical idea,
That lead to a serious project,
Which evolved into a passion,
Finally manifesting into a book that I could not be more proud of.
I'm so excited!
Tuesday, August 19, 2014
However it's more rewarding to trust, love and take action.
I've experienced the outcome of negative and positive thoughts; without question, the positive energy always leads to a more rewarding outlook and subsequently a brighter result.
No matter the circumstance, there is power in recognizing we can manifest phenomenal things with Faith.
Monday, August 18, 2014
My soul wants to create,
My brain wants a challenge,
My OCD wants to take action,
But my heart NEEDS time: with my family, friends and myself.
I need to calm my thoughts, fears and desires, and remember how healing it is to sit in stillness and appreciate my surroundings.
Enlightenment comes through meditation.
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Saturday, August 16, 2014
Friday, August 15, 2014
As an adult, I can comprehend how extraordinary my parents are.
Growing up they gave me: discipline, guidance, support, unconditional love and the confidence to follow my passion; they continue to do so now. Moreover, they have become my friends.
When I feel like giving up, they're my coach-building me up.
If I need to cry, they provide a shoulder and words of wisdom to cheer me up.
When my ego takes over, they're there to remind me who I am.
When I need help, they continue to offer whatever they can.
I know how lucky I am, I count my blessings everyday.
I have a mom and dad that continue to be my number one fans, whether I'm teaching, performing, writing or working as a waiter; their love and pride is an example of true parenting.
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
After a successful week of teaching, choreographing, and laughing with old friends; it's time I leave NYC.
I'm delighted that I got to see my buddy star on Broadway, my bestie's company shine on stage and even pick up some fun new designer merchandise at the House of Lodes! (AKA my friends hand-me-downs.)
But like all great adventures, this too must end, and just in time- it's raining... And I hate summer rain in NYC!
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
His ability to bring joy in sadness, truth in comedy and energy to all was extraordinary! Very few people can make you cry while you're laughing and laugh while you're crying-
Robin Williams artistry will be missed.
Monday, August 11, 2014
Between the tourist, subway rides and distractions everywhere- even a trip to Starbucks feels like work.
The city is pulsing with creativity, energy and MONEY.
go, Go, GO! is the attitude here.
I had a massage, three Starbucks coffees, two rehearsals, a Broadway show and dinner all in one day!
It's a crazy adventure, but I'm ready to get back to LA.
These days yoga, a power meeting and an audition are more my speed.
Sunday, August 10, 2014
Saturday, August 9, 2014
I'm ready to relax and enjoy a mimosa and brunch with good friends.
As soon as I can convince myself to get out of bed and hobble to the shower.
Friday, August 8, 2014
A NYC cafe full of people on their iSwippythings...
Posting, tagging, checking in-
But certainly not making contact with the friends sitting next to them.
I belong to a generation that has the best if both worlds.
I know how to Tweet a sassy thought, post an interesting photo and check-in to share my location to anyone interested (including the government).
Fortunately, I still remember how to UNPLUG!
Do the social media tech savvy children of our future even know what a handshake is? Or do the fist bump without looking up as the swipe to a new app?
Thursday, August 7, 2014
You can walk into a random Starbucks near Union Square and run into an old friend, (even though neither of you actually live in NYC anymore) and pick up right where you left off.
You can sit in a park and be approached by three complete strangers from three different countries, who are all in an English class-and they want to engage in conversation to better understand the language. (P.S. All three spoke better English than a third of the people who are actually born here.)
You can eat a three course meal at 1AM and nobody thinks anything of it.
But my favorite part, you can walk around any area of this city and gaze up and see no less than: 10 different types of architecture, 10 different ethnicities and 10 different styles of fashion-all while watching an uber wealthy stockbroker avoid eye contact with a homeless man.
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
My body is a twisted piece of crunched up muscle-
Aching all over from prolonged teaching.
How did those dancers keep up?
Oh, right- they're sixteen and I'm thirty-six!
When did that happen?
I might be in pain, but I'll never stop teaching.
...my leg just might not go as high.
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
It's like time stood still.
Sitting in the comfort of my old living room, laughing with my roommate;
Reminiscing about the past and catching up on the present.
I was a different person back then, I had yet to grow into myself.
She pointed out that I am comfortable in my new skin-
Yes, I am proud of the person I'm becoming. I've stayed true to my goals and dreams, and haven't given up on the idea that "it" will happen.
It IS happening!
A constant work in progress. Maybe I'll really discover who I am when I'm old and bald?
Monday, August 4, 2014
I hate waiting in lines!
It started at Disneyland when I was five-
And continues to torture me to this day.
Especially at the airport.
Boarding the plane...
rage. Rage. #RAGE!!!