Saturday, April 30, 2016

60 Years!

My grandparents celebrate their 60th Wedding Anniversary today.
I'm in awe of their love, light, laughter and  ability to work through sixty years of life's highs and lows.
They continue to inspire me to strive for excellence in every aspect of my life;
Seek new opportunities, build solid relationships, and shine bright.

Friday, April 29, 2016

Faith vs. Frustration

When you have expectations you’re bound to be disappointed;
When you have Faith––you know you will succeed regardless of the circumstances.

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Flying to Family

I am a professional traveler;
Lounging in gate areas is my speciality.
Conducting business, meditating, and of course people watching—it's the perfect slice of life.
Today I'm traveling to visit my family.
It's nice to be in an airport when it's not work related;
I actually feel like a normal person on my way to a fun vacation.
I'm expecting a drama free trip.
#PositiveAffirmations while visiting family!

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Not Overachieving

Sometimes all I need is a nap by the pool to remember how blessed I am.
I'm simultaneously working on my tan, meditating, and enjoying nature.
#Balance

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Monday, April 25, 2016

Note to Self:

My ego has an agenda that is in vast conflict with my soul;
The voice in my head has a plan that is in direct opposition with my heart.
Silence the distractions and trust the faith;
Be present and the path will appear.

Sunday, April 24, 2016

Sunrise

Few things bring me as much joy as waking up to a beautiful sunrise.
The vibrant colors of blue in the sky;
A happy reminder of how textured life can be.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Friday, April 22, 2016

Life vs. TSA Line

Both require a deep breath.
You might not want to deal with the wait;
But the destination is usually worth it.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Remember

If you’re looking for a reason to be upset––you’ll find one.
If you want to spend the day in a bad mood, that is a choice.
With less energy than it takes to be negative; you can take a deep breath, release that moment, and smile.
We always have the choice; why let five minutes of frustration evolve into a full day of negativity?

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Change Is Happening; Always.

When I was in preschool our class sprouted bean plants;
We set a dry bean on a wet paper towel and carefully placed it in a ziplock bag.
Over the course of a week we watched the progress of the bean.
The first night I could hardly sleep;
I was anxious to return to the classroom to see my new bean plant.
Alas, I arrived the following morning to the same light brown bean––no change.
The second day I had a similar reaction.
By day three, I believed I could see the side of my bean splitting; still not the result I was expecting.
Every day I carefully monitored the bean––and was in agony over how long the process was taking.
By the end of the week, I was on my way to school and I had given up hope of seeing a dramatic difference in the bean.
To my surprise (and satisfaction) the bean was completely transformed overnight!
There was long light green sprout which curled back on itself, and several little roots.
The bean experiment is the perfect reminder for life:
Change is happening constantly.
As an adult I realize that bean didn’t sprout over night.
Every second there was change.  The beans exterior was softening.  The embryo was forming. However it would not have been able to penetrate the beans surface if the outer shell of the bean was not ready.
It sometimes feels otherwise; but my life is constantly evolving.
The energy I spend writing, reading, meditating, exercising, working, and creating are helping me transform.
I cannot expect to see results over night;
but if I’m patient, I will experience a lifetime of joy.

Monday, April 18, 2016

Life Lessons at an Airport

Waiting at the gate to board a flight is a wonderful metaphor for life:
Some people line up early,
Others wait patiently until it’s their turn,
And then there are those who sit and wait to board until the last minute;
Either way––everyone will end up at the same place.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Release the Need to Over-Achieve

It’s easy to become overwhelmed with all of the things that you want to happen in your life.
The pressure, whether self-inflicted or realized based on a comparison, to accomplish greatness is real;
So is the struggle to release it.
While establishing a strong foundation for success is important; no amount of planning, goal-setting, or hard work can force a hand.
I’ve witnessed that opportunities present themselves in time––whether we think we’re ready or not.
We can either take a leap of Faith or not.
Ultimately it’s not about the accomplishment or victory; it’s the journey of self-discovery along the way.
My life goal: Enjoy my life.
No amount of fame, success, wealth, or accolades will bring us closer to happiness or enlightenment.
Regardless, presence and awareness will bring us peace of mind wherever we go.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Go Into Your Zen

When the mind is overwhelmed there’s only one thing to do:
Close your eyes;
Take a deep breath;
And go into your Zen.
Meditation is the key to finding peace of mind.
Refocusing on the present;
Releasing the past;
Remembering the future will resolve itself later.

Friday, April 15, 2016

The View Is Clear

I'm currently on an airplane flying somewhere over the boarder of California and Nevada;
From up here the view is clear, calm, peaceful. 
All of the fears, doubts, and stress floats away;
I'm reminded that distance provides perspective.
Life is beautiful. 

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Surrender

When you cannot change a circumstance,
You can always surrender to it.
Sometimes it makes more sense to release the need to control;
And completely let go.
Similar to that moment you’re on a roller coaster and you’re near the peak––the panic builds and you question, “Why did I get on this ride?”
All you can do is raise your hands, close your eyes, and scream like hell!
Once you surrender––the fear dissipates and the journey is once again fun.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Remember:

In the midst of chaos, turn on the light;
Generally a switch is located near the entrance to fear (right next to the part of your brain that does the overthinking.)

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Shine On.

In the darkness of a power outage;
A flash light is your friend.
Likewise, when you’re overwhelmed by negative energy;
A positive thought will brighten the situation.
Fear, anger, insecurity––they feed in the shadows of our thoughts.
Remain present.  Breathe in light and there will be no room for shady business.

Monday, April 11, 2016

Flip The Switch

Fear is a defense mechanism, which stops you from pursuing your purpose.
Flip the switch from fear to fearless;
Exposing the endless possibilities that your future holds.

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Same Path

You can walk along a wooded path in darkness feeling fear and loneliness;
That very same path in the light of day can bring joy and a sense of adventure.
The path is full of colorful flowers and deeply rooted trees in darkness or light;
The only difference is our outlook.
In the darkness we fear the worst, in the daylight we see the journey for what it really is.
This is life.

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Inner Body Peace

How we feel on the inside;
Is directly associated with how we present ourselves on the outside.
Seeking enlightenment requires uniting the mind, body, and soul.

Friday, April 8, 2016

Thursday, April 7, 2016

Wizard of OZ Moment

The moment I release doubt;
Success guaranteed.
No amount of stress, insecurity or fear can outshine Faith.
The power of choice is always within my reach.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Remember:

When you turn your focus to positive action––you are more empowered and find joy; regardless of the outcome.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

I Am

I Am here.
Present; without fear of the unknown.
Awake; without regret of the unchangeable past.
Aware of the endless possibilities that this moment offers.
I Am ready.

Monday, April 4, 2016

Airport Gratitude

For nearly twenty years I've called airports across the globe, my second home;
I'm so grateful for the relationships that I've cultivated on my adventures.
Regardless of distance or the time past between visits—I always find comfort in my friends.
After years of artistic growth, the have blossomed into my family.
I'm blessed to have them on my journey!

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Rise and Shine

A new day;
Opportunity awaits.
Waking up to endless possibility.
Just because you’re up and out of bed, doesn’t mean you’re awake.
Rise to the occasion by releasing yesterday and finding a new purpose today.
Present, aware and ready to shine.
Today is the only moment that matters.

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Find the Light.

In the midst of darkness;
Finding light can be challenging.
Close your eyes tight and take a deep breath,
As you release the air, slowly open your eyes and you will see light everywhere.
Repeat as often as it takes to find your way back to enlightenment.

Friday, April 1, 2016

Ready for Adventure

When you live in the present;
Everything is an adventure.
Mindful of the fact that time is measured in our ability to stay aware. 
Without judgment, fear, doubt, stress, or anxiety—anything could happen!

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Take A Moment...

Trust means allowing yourself a day to be goofy.
I’m exploring my boundaries with balance;
Everything that needs to get done––
Will be accomplished in time.
Or it won’t be.
I’m okay with that... At least in this moment.
#Present

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Quality vs. Quantity

I’m an overachiever;
Always trying to squeeze more productivity out of every moment.
Thankfully, over the years I’ve learned that it’s not always about the quantity––but the quality in which I spend my energy.
Sometimes giving one-hundred percent means stepping back from the situation and allowing the momentum build.
Trust that work is happening, even in the downtime.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Now Is Always Here

As an artists, I’m always searching for inspiration––which inevitably leads to an endless loop of reliving memories, revisiting ideas and thinking about how to anticipate what’s next.
I’m constantly resisting the urge to overanalyze. Like getting stuck in an all-night Google search session; you started out the journey looking for one answer, and somehow you’ve ended up reading about the success of your teenage crush.
Tapped in the past, or lost in the future––neither will help me in the present.
Creating meaningful work requires staying connected to what’s happening now; that awareness is the key to evolution.

Monday, March 28, 2016

Life Journey

The most challenging journey that I’ll ever experience, is ongoing;
Life––the ability to stay on course.
One step at a time maneuvering through hopes, dreams, goals, fears, setbacks, accomplishments and processing loss;
It’s not about reaching the destination on this adventure.
It’s about seeking joy, becoming enlightened and evolving as a person.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Easter Light

I went to Easter Vigil mass last night;
The congregation gathered outside the church––holding un-light candles.
The priest read a passage from the bible and then explained the significance of the candle light; he lit the blessed candle, and then the parishioners each lit their candle from the light of the first. Turning and sharing the light that they had received.
We walked into the pitch black church.
I reached an unoccupied pew and stood alone in the darkness.
I felt sadness––I missed my family, friends and Jeff.
Easter used to be full of color, light, family gatherings and joy.
Tears came to my eyes; all of the sudden the watery glaze illuminated the candle I was holding––I followed the glow around the church.  It was beautiful.
The flicker of light finally lead me back to the cross.  I looked up and realized,
I am not alone––I never have been and never will be, so long as I believe in Gods word.
In that moment I felt calm, grateful, supported, and blessed.
My focus for the past three months has been centered on light: seeking light, living in light, shining my light––how appropriate that I decided to attend an Easter Vigil.
I needed to be reminded that Easter is more than past memories, chocolate bunnies, family gatherings and expensive brunches––it’s a time to reflect on the sacrifice that was made so that we could seek the light.

Saturday, March 26, 2016

Now or Nothing

The little voice in my head gets louder when I slip away from the present.
Demands and expectations are catapulted from unconscious fears and I lose grip of my awareness;
Nothing brilliant is born from doubt or stress.
How do I confront the inner bully?
I don’t.
I release the noise and refocus on living in this moment.
I can torture myself––agonizing over circumstances that cannot be controlled;
Or I can make the choice to let go.
Nothing is lost when you make the choice to return to NOW.
The past can’t be extinguished any more than the future can be decided;
All we have is the breath in this moment––and nothing else.

Friday, March 25, 2016

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

You Are Here

Mall directories offer the best advice for life:
In the chaos of the Starbucks, Bloomingdale’s, Apple Store, See’s Candy, Foot Locker, Wilson’s Leather, The Gap and Bath and Body Works––there is a giant arrow that points to a location and says: “You Are Here”.
Our lives become so overcomplicated with flashy signs, material desires, social media, and the voices in our head demanding us to relive the past and stress about the future, that we forget about the only thing that matters; the present.
If only we could remember that mall directory when we become overwhelmed;
You are here, now.

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Success

I think it’s safe to say that everyone has their version of success;
Some use jobs, connections, accomplishments and social status to determine if they’ve become successful.
Others seek fame and fortune to define their standing;
Then there are those who believe success is found doing what they love.
I used to be one of those people––until I realized that I find more happiness, gratitude and energy finding success in awareness; being awake in the moment and appreciative of the joy that comes from whatever I’m doing in the present.
In doing so, I’m free from any burden of society’s expectations or judgments.
A simple switch in the outlook of success, can offer a lifetime of stress free, fearless blessings.

Monday, March 21, 2016

Joy

Joy is in the simple tasks;
Hidden behind the stress or doubt––a beam of light escapes, forcing you to acknowledge that even the darkest corners of your mind seek positive energy.

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Two Words; No Problem

Problems are dealt with out of fear;
Situations are solved through awareness and action.
Simply by changing the way we look at (and label) the same circumstance––we can shift focus, remain positive, and proceed with faith.
Life is either beautiful or devastating, depending on you outlook.

Saturday, March 19, 2016

#Positivity

Waking up to fresh opportunities;
The only thing more intoxicating than the aroma of coffee at 5AM,
Is the fragrance of life––and the exciting adventure that awaits today.
#Positivity

Friday, March 18, 2016

The Power Is In Your Hands

The ability to release the guilt from yesterday,
and resist the anxiety of tomorrow––allows us to be more productive today.
The past is gone. The future will never be here;
All we have is the present.
Nothing from the past or future can come in contact with the present;
Unless you enable it to enter your mind.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

The Light in You

When the negative energy is overwhelming;
The mind becomes concentrated on giving into the doubt.
When you are surrounded by darkness externally;
Close your eyes and find the light inside––it will always be there.
We have the tools to triumph in even the darkest storms.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Breathe In The Climb

Living in the present requires relinquishing control;
For someone who identifies with type-A personality traits, this is similar to a mental expedition up Mount Everest.
Without the proper tools, the trek will be impossible.
Even after doing the research, training and preparation––there is no guarantee that I will reach the top.
That is the beauty of an endeavor so massive;
The fulfillment is not found looking down from above––instead the gratitude is inhaled one breath at a time.
The past is gone, the future is never here––the present is all we have time for.

Monday, March 14, 2016

Ego

My ego tells me I have to accomplish more;
My soul reminds me that my ego is a bully.
The ego fears death;
The soul embraces life.
Live in the NOW!

Sunday, March 13, 2016

The Power of Now

The ability to acknowledge this moment:
Accept it without judgement;
Release it without thinking;
Stay present without doubt.

Saturday, March 12, 2016

Dive Into Pain––Find Joy.

Some people think that an artist has to live a tortured life in order to create a true masterpiece.
I believe the beauty of a brilliant work of art is not discovered in the pain, but rather through the acceptance of who we are; flawed, insecure, filled with doubt.
Compelled to uncover a deeper sense of joy, artists dive forward into the pain in order to experience the joy that radiates from the awareness––stripped from everything we are all the same: humans in search of inner peace.

Friday, March 11, 2016

Pain To Present

What feels like a deep wound is little more than a scratch.
Once the cut has been cleaned and examined you can distinguish between reacting to a fear based on past experience, and the truth of the moment; the pain is a memory of the past.
As soon as we shift our mind to the present, the pain is released, Now the healing begins.

Thursday, March 10, 2016

The Joy of Release

The intoxicating sense of gratitude;
Surrendering to the simple fact: We are in control of absolutely nothing.
The release of expectation––gives way to the joy of abundance.
Walking through the darkest trails only enables us to appreciate the light of a new direction.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

The Past Is Gone––Find Your Present!

The most difficult obstacle on the path to enlightenment is accepting that every day brings a new challenge;
How we react to circumstance is directly connected to how we achieve inner peace.
Everything can be resolved with a deep breath––it’s not always the easy choice, but it is certainly the most effective way to release the past and step into the present.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Mind Your Creativity

When my mind is still;
My sense of play is activated––I am free to be creative.
Without fear, my imagination kicks in and I’m off on a new adventure.
The static of life can cause insanity;
Over analyzing a situation beyond thoughtfulness and into the realm of negativity––darkness.
Only in the light can we clearly see the beauty of our inspiration.

Monday, March 7, 2016

Open Here

God provides doors to rooms you didn't even realize existed—until you've discovered that you're ready to enter.

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Remember

Inner Peace begins with release;
There can be no enlightenment without letting go. 

Saturday, March 5, 2016

Gratitude.

When I feel like complaining I remind myself:
I’m alive, I’m healthy, and I get to follow my passion.
Nothing else matters.

Friday, March 4, 2016

You Are Here.

Release yesterday, it cannot be changed;
Loosen the control of tomorrow, it cannot be tamed;
Breathe in today, it is all we have for certain.
Stand in the beauty of this moment and embrace the unlimited potential that exists, NOW.

Thursday, March 3, 2016

Follow Light.

The lighthouse stands tall and bright in the pitch-black horizon.
In total darkness, it is impossible to miss the light.
Whether we seek it or not is our choice;
Follow the light to a safe harbor––or ignore it, and collide with the inevitable.
There are warnings throughout our life, but only those who welcome the light will find a happy landing.

Wednesday, March 2, 2016

Challenge, Accepted!

Where some people see problems––I see a challenge;
A new adventure that will push me to activate my mind, body and soul.
Stirring creativity and intellect to achieve a new level of awareness and, and continue my evolution as a creator.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

When In Doubt...

If you’ve ever experienced a moment that falls into place perfectly once you let go of the fear––you'd want to tap into that ability every time there’s an issue, right?
But human nature will more often than not, have us turn our concern or doubt into fear; if we obsess and panic, it will motivate us?
I used to think if I wasn’t stressing out about something––I probably didn’t care enough.
Thankfully, I’ve learned that the more I care, the more I should release the doubt and Faith it out.
Trust that I have done the work and will know what to do when the time comes; remember that there is a higher power working to guide me where I’m meant to be, and release everything else.

Monday, February 29, 2016

Faith

The ability to trust what cannot be seen;
To thrive on the energy that can only be felt;
To create from the wisdom that is handed down from experienced practitioners;
The light that radiates from a source that is greater than us:
Reminding us to live!

Sunday, February 28, 2016

Free Will

We all have a choice;
The question is will we use it to evolve?
Once I decided to change my outlook, a library full of new opportunities opens up.
Renew your library card, and start reading!

Friday, February 26, 2016

Thursday, February 25, 2016

Practice Makes Stronger

Tools are only useful if you’re willing to do the work;
Developing the skills daily––like a carpenter refining their craftsmanship,
I continue to seek enlightenment and awareness.
Through Faith and fearlessness;
I will continue to evolve.

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Spotlight

The creatures who fear light remain in the depths of the ocean for a reason;
It requires overwhelming effort to ascend from the darkness.
Hiding in the shadows is easy––stepping into the spotlight is terrifying;
Once you feel the power of light, your journey will find new purpose.

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Note To Self: Letting Go

Some days just start off on the wrong note––no matter how hard I try to find the pitch, the music is flat.
In those moments I used to freak out, rage and live in negativity;
Thankfully, yesterday I was able to exhale anger and breathe in awareness.
The day didn’t get any less complicated, but as my outlook shifted, I was able to laugh through the setbacks.
Life can be overwhelming if I allow external circumstances to dictate my emotions;
But the power to take control, remain calm, focused and present in the moment is always the option that will lead to a more productive day.
It will keep me healthier, too.

Monday, February 22, 2016

Happiness Party of One

Everything in life worth having,
Comes with an extremely high price tag: hard work.
If we don’t invest effort in improving our inner well-being;
Connect to a higher power,
And release the idea that happiness should be “easy”;
No amount of success, fortune or fame will fill the void.
No procession, person or social status will radiate the joy that is produced through personal awareness of the present.
Happiness only takes you.

Sunday, February 21, 2016

Do The Work; Every Day.

When everything is going your way––the real work begins.
I’ve heard a similar sentiment before, and I thought I knew what it meant;
After reading “The Tools” by Phil Stutz and Barry Michels, the idea has a new meaning.
Most of us are striving to achieve the goals and dreams that have consumed us since we were children––those thoughts that would inspire us to fight through the pains of adolescents.
We had a target to focus on, and spend our life working toward achieving those benchmarks.
Harnessing our passion, and through hard work, dedication, and focus we begin to reach these achievements––in doing so we think our life is going to be easy from there on.
Then we realize that each new victory reveals a more difficult challenge;
No amount of success, riches or fame can “fix us”, like we imagined it would when we were kids.
But as adults we have the power to seek repair from the inside out;
Focusing on self-improvement, becoming aware and releasing the fantasy that money, possessions, success and fame are the answer to all of life's problems.

Saturday, February 20, 2016

Grateful

I used to think that if I didn't feel pressure, overworked, overwhelmed or constantly searching for a way to stay creative, I wouldn't achieve my goals;
The constant chaos felt like I was actively building on my career.
Obviously there are so many paths towards a victory––and while I did follow my dreams and accomplish so many of my goals, I wasn't always present.  I didn't always feel satisfied with the outcome; worse, I almost never enjoyed the moment as it was happening.
I'd look back with a sadness––if only I would have enjoyed that process (I'd think to myself).
I woke up and decided that I no longer wanted to live with those feelings.
Rather than focusing on the past, I decided to concentrate on the present.
This requires letting go of the things I cannot change, and accepting that, no matter how hard I try, I can't predict the future.
I have to be present, now.
Every time I start to feel like I'm not doing enough, I close my eyes, take a deep breath and focus on this moment.
Awareness has been my way to a new adventure; my only goal is to enjoy the moment for whatever it brings.  The old me would have been terrified that I wasn't trying hard enough––the new me is ready to be grateful for whatever the day has to offer.

Friday, February 19, 2016

I Am Here.

The moment you let go of the past;
Is the instant you embrace the present.
The second you start worrying about the future;
Is the point when you release control of today.
Be here, NOW.

Thursday, February 18, 2016

Through Darkness Seek Light

Grey clouds roll in covering the perfect LA facade;
The rain is a sign of renewal,
And a reminder that in a storm, I seek the light of the sun.
The rays are still there hiding behind the darkness;
I search for a sliver of light––if I look close enough, I see a silver lining.

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Be Here Now.

Knowing that I am one with the universe,
Trusting that God has a plan for everyone,
Believing in something even if those around me don’t,
Grateful for every journey, adventure and lesson;
Faith when all else fails––trusting that my path will always be clear.
Aware of how short life is,
I live in this moment, and that is all that I have.

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Dark Clouds Block Light

Above every dark cloud remains the brilliant shine of the sun’s rays.
Seek the silver lining in the cracks, and follow that sliver of light to the positive place––where creativity, productivity, and Faith remain.
The warmth and power that accompany light are worth searching for.

Monday, February 15, 2016

Express Yourself

Express yourself.
It’s more than just a song by Madonna;
It is our greatest tool to shine.
When our hidden shadow and our conscious-self collaborate to manifest an authentic experience––we become aware, and therefore create the most enlightened version of ourself.

Sunday, February 14, 2016

Me and My Shadow: The Collaboration

I’m working on joining forces with my alter ego;
The short, fat kid with acne who still lives inside of me––making occasional appearances in moments of pressure, fear, or uncomfortable circumstances.
In honor of Valentine’s Day, I’m going to give my little butterball the love and attention he needs.
Rather than trying to hide that version of myself (or worse, pretend he never existed), I’m going to listen to him.  I’m going to be the “cool” best friend that he thought he never had in middle school.
His rage, insecurity, passion, and need to be heard has helped motivate my life;
Now I’m in a position to help him heal.
I’ve done the work.  I accept who I am.  I’m not afraid to expose the dark imperfections.
It’s time.

Saturday, February 13, 2016

Self-Expression through our Shadow

Who hasn’t felt small, insecure, shamed?
We endure pain and humiliation as part of the universal human experience;
Which also means that we can connect through that common bond.
Once we acknowledge our shadow self, we can confront others without fear.
The language of love and understanding can be expressed in our ability to face the darkest version of ourself––and use it to express our greatest (and most unique) voice.

Friday, February 12, 2016

The Path Is Clear

When you release the fear of the unknown;
It becomes clear to see the road in front of you.
One step, in any direction, will lead you to the next step.
We’ll face challenges and setbacks no matter which path we choose;
Deal with those roadblocks when they happen––until then, enjoy the journey for what it brings today.

Thursday, February 11, 2016

Insecurity

The moment we decide to take authority over the destructive demon––the outdated version of us, which is thriving in the darkest corner of our memory; you will begin to soar.
We all have an idea of how the world perceives us;
Until we’re able to detach from that image and shine who we really are, we are doomed to a life without realizing our greatest potential.
Self-expression is what makes us unique:
Beautifully flawed,
Vulnerable and still strong,
Creative without judgment.
Insecurity will not serve us, it will stop us from becoming who we were born to be.

Wednesday, February 10, 2016

Trust

The journey to self-discovery begins within;
Consuming information and expanding ideas through reading and writing—eventually you just have to trust.
Trust that you have invested wisely and will respond accordingly to every circumstance, or that you have the Faith to trust in a higher power.
Enlightenment comes through awareness and faith.

Tuesday, February 9, 2016

Grandpa Knew Best

My grandpa used to tell me that I worried, too much.
I would sit at the table while my grandma and grandpa read the morning paper, and my mind would be lost in thought;
Grandpa would ask, “What’s wrong Matt?”
I would shake my head and say, “nothing.”
He would laugh, and then remind me, “Life is short––don’t worry so much. Whatever you’re thinking about, if you want to do it––do it; if you don’t want to do it––don’t do it.”
It was simple, albeit lost on me at the time.
But grandpa was right, and it works this way, too:
If you want to be angry––be angry; if you don’t want to be angry––don’t be angry.
There’s no point in allowing someone or something to effect your life.
Release and move on.
The past is gone, why live there in your mind?

Monday, February 8, 2016

Courage

In order to live a full life––I have to release the ideas and expectations I perceive from society;
Self-inflicted thoughts bully me into unproductive patterns.
Staying aware, present in the moment and open to the opportunity that exist today; not waiting for a bigger, better, brighter experience tomorrow.
Every adventure starts NOW and leads to a journey that is more magnificent than any plan or dream.

Sunday, February 7, 2016

Take The Step

The first step can be overwhelming;
Anticipation, fear of the unknown, and doubt make it hard to lift your leg.
With a deep breath you find the strength to lift your leg––soon you’re walking one foot in front of the other.
Soon you’re in a full stride with grace and confidence;
Pushing yourself toward new opportunities.
With action comes adventure!

Saturday, February 6, 2016

No Pain, No Gain

The deeper we dive into the pain;
The closer we are to finding a way to move past it and heal.
Avoiding uncomfortable conversations, activities and events prolongs the experience.
Facing circumstances head-on forces us to work through the discomfort and evolve.
The fear we endure from pain is no match for the euphoria we experience once we’ve conquered it.

Friday, February 5, 2016

Comfort Zone

Push past the Comfort Zone;
Living small, safe, and secure will not lead me to new opportunities.
Shine bright, be fearless, and adventurous.
It may cause embarrassment, pain, or insecurities to arise;
Only then can we evolve into the person we were born to be.

Thursday, February 4, 2016

Faith

Freedom
Awareness
Infinite
Trust
Happiness
Once you release the idea that Faith is intangible;
You can begin utilizing it.
We can’t reach out and grab a handful of air, but that doesn’t stop us from breathing.
Those who need proof of the existence of Faith––should look for the absence of it;
There they will find hopelessness, anger, fear, darkness and doubt.
Now, look for someone who radiates light, positive energy, fearlessness––all trusting.  It is no accident that they succeed and achieve remarkable things.  It is a belief in a higher power, energy or collective consciousness.

Wednesday, February 3, 2016

Breaking the Habit

Breaking the ego––creating space for awareness;
Focused on breathing to release the negative ideas and actions that will not serve us.
Living in the present, ready for new opportunities, adventures and evolution.
Growth happens whenever we allow ourselves to experience the moment;
Accepting the situation––while continuing to invite new ways of thinking enthusiastically, to gain a greater peace of mind.
“A new attitude means nothing unless followed by a change in behavior.”
––”The Tools”

Tuesday, February 2, 2016

I Am Here.

Once I released the need to control my path;
My journey became about self-discovery in the present, instead of a premeditated excursion.
Life––awake in this moment, is reward enough.

Monday, February 1, 2016

A New Earth

Acceptance. Find the peace in what has to be done.
Enjoyment. Seek joy from within, not from an accomplishment.
Enthusiasm. Stay positive and present on the journey.
Three ideas that require letting go of ego to make space for inner peace.
Aware that this moment, the present, is the only space in which we can awake and serve––ourself and others.
Enlightenment is not the end goal––it’s an active choice.

Sunday, January 31, 2016

Rise

Awake consciousness,
Take action,
Remove ego,
Embrace the Present.
We are all searching for enlightenment;
Only when we still the noise, can we hear.
Inner peace is already inside––we just have to breathe and invite it to rise.

Saturday, January 30, 2016

Awake

There is beauty in releasing ego and embracing awareness;
No goal or accomplishment is greater than the inner peace that comes out of release.
The Presence of life––in this moment is all we have;
Breathe through the fear of inadequacy and awake the spirit:
Mind, body, and soul in search of light.
Just like dawn shocks the sky with gorgeous light from complete darkness––our life begins anew each day with purpose beyond who we are, or what we do.
We are more than ego, we are a connected energy.

Friday, January 29, 2016

Inner Space

Deep breath in;
Exhale all thoughts and invite light,
Surrounded by stillness and warmth.
The space in my mind is clear:
Inner peace. 

Thursday, January 28, 2016

Reaction

Some people seek a reaction in order to validate their presence.
Others complain in search of being heard.
Awareness means letting go of the judgment––often a non-response says everything you need it to;
By silencing your thoughts, you gain consciousness in the present.
The inner voice can rest, free from labeling a situation good or bad:
You are at peace.

Wednesday, January 27, 2016

I Am

I am here in this moment;
Nothing more, nothing less––
The past is behind me and cannot be changed,
The future is in the distance and cannot be promised.
I exist in this moment: Aware, Grateful, Focused; seeking enlightenment.

Tuesday, January 26, 2016

For Better or Worse.

The present is here, for better or worse;
Enjoy this moment––you don’t know when it may come again,
Endure this moment––you don’t know what it’s preparing you for.
Welcoming awareness into every aspect of our life allows us to accept the circumstances for what they are, and move forward accordingly.
Invite the light and thrive, even in our darkest hour.

Monday, January 25, 2016

Be Happy

My grandpa used to say, “If you want to be happy, be happy. If you want to be upset, be upset.”
The lighthearted wisdom with which he spoke would encourage me to think rather than react in anger, which is what would happen if anyone else would try to talk me out of a bad mood.
I was never able to grasp the ability to, “be happy” as a teenager; I was too busy caught up in the need to express my disappointment.
My grandpa was the only man I’ve ever met, who was able to stay calm and smile through almost any circumstance.
Even on his deathbed he reminded me, “Don’t be sad Matt, I’m so proud of you.”
For grandpa, Faith and the power of making a choice was all he needed to accept everything that life delivered to him.
“Happy” is a choice.  It requires releasing everything that is provoking un-happy feelings––which is tough to do if you love the drama, but necessary if you want to find inner peace.

Sunday, January 24, 2016

Let E-go...

Letting go of ego;
To make room for evolution.
The goal: to become a more productive, generous, faithful person for the sake of a more pleasant world.

Saturday, January 23, 2016

The Time Is Now

My active mind is always questioning time;
Practically speaking, time is the primary way we function in society: meetings, planning and marking special occasions.
Time also comes in the form of past and future;
Neither of which really exists in the present: the past is gone, and the future will always be a distant marker.
It is in the release of those boundaries that we can escape the restrictions of time.
Looking back will not change the past anymore than planning ahead will bring the future closer––today is the only moment which we can truly live.
Understanding that surrender brings me a peace of mind and allows me to utilize the only time I really have: NOW.

Friday, January 22, 2016

Present

Managing to stay aware;
Trusting that nothing before or after can effect this moment.
The Faith in releasing the unknown––the confidence to accept what is now.

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Who Are You?

Staring back at myself in the mirror;
On the surface I see the resemblance of myself as a teenager––minus the acne and perhaps with more wrinkles.
A deeper gaze into my own eyes reveals an evolved version of myself.
More secure, grateful and at peace.
Every day I find a stronger sense of self––something that I didn’t even realize was missing in my twenties.
The beauty of my life intensifies when I release the fear and trust that I am here for a reason; my life has a purpose, and I will continue to explore, grow and become the person I’m meant to be.

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

I am enLIGHTened

The moment of letting go;
A deep breath in and a giant exhale of toxic thought, fear, reaction, or energy.
Holding onto outdated ideas of who I am or what I’m meant to be, will not serve me today.
Questioning my future will not lead to a brighter tomorrow.
Understanding that the only way to a more connected, happy life is through acceptance.
Acknowledgment leads to enlightenment.

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

Presence

Releasing the past;
Finding strength to mute the voice in my head and become aware without judgment.
A shift in processing how I interact with others and respond to conflict.
Allowing myself to experience the moment as it is happening, to awake my true potential. 

Monday, January 18, 2016

Note To Self

Energy, positive or negative, is transferred to and from everyone we meet;
A smile makes a greater impact and invites darkness to lighten up.

Sunday, January 17, 2016

Negativity

I do not have to accept negative energy from others;
Their pain is not my responsibility.
Rather, my mission is to encourage happiness—through the release of fear and the welcome of Faith.
Inviting light in, and sharing it with a smile, a listening ear and positive thought.

Saturday, January 16, 2016

Unhappiness is an Addiction

Recognizing the moment of unhappiness is the first step toward taking action.
When we can acknowledge the pain, fear, insecurity, doubt or sadness and understand where the feeling is coming from, we are more likely to find happiness.
It requires learning how to stop the negative energy the moment we feel it; and in exchange invite a positive thought to combat it.
Only by inviting in the light can we extinguish the dark––but you have to accept that you can’t see before you admit you need to turn on the light switch.

Friday, January 15, 2016

Let It Go.

Letting go of the past will set me free;
Or at least give me the permission to make space for the present.
I have a tendency to overanalyze situations and events.
As I work on finding a more peaceful balance in my life, I must accept that the past is behind me; good, bad or indifferent––I cannot change the circumstance or even the outcome, but I can shift the way I react to the memory.
Memories are similar to a roadmap; guiding us back to a place in time.
Once I can look at that map as a point of reference, so as not to make the same choice (if it was a negative experience) I will have a powerful tool.
I can acknowledge the experience, release the painful scenario and approach the present with a peaceful mind and a valuable compass.
History only repeats itself––good or bad, when we allow it too.
I’d rather make history than repeat it.

Thursday, January 14, 2016

Emotion

The egos reaction to circumstance;
Knowing the difference between an instinctual fear vs. overthinking.
Receiving praise or criticism alters my consciousness and triggers my body to respond, whether positive or negative, for self-preservation.
Awareness brings serenity, Faith, trust and acknowledgement.
When I release the attachment to self; I invite the truth of the situation enabling me to process the information and evolve.
Surrendering to fear, anger, resentment, sadness, jealousy––all contribute to an unhealthy body and unhappy mind.
Embracing and working through the facts allows for a positive outlook and a healthier, loving, quality of life.

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Collaboration

Welcoming the opportunity to join forces in creativity, wisdom, strength and quality––to yield a more polished product.
A successful use of talent; an enlightened way to work.

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

The Now

The magic of now.
Failed attempts, heartaches, grievances and disappoints are behind me;
The challenge to embrace a fresh start––we get one everyday, and it’s our choice to take advantage of the new sunrise, or seek the darkness of the night before.
Happiness is not the byproduct of a fabulous victory, job or opportunity;
It is a conscious effort to find balance and a calmness from within.
Finding contentment does not mean losing the essence of who I am––anymore than it means I will no longer fight for my creative voice.
Rather, it is knowing and accepting that whatever today brings will serve me tomorrow.

Monday, January 11, 2016

Stay Focused

It’s so easy to slip back into deeply rooted ideas and habits;
They’re safe, comfortable, and familiar––they are also destructive, otherwise we would not have invested the conscious energy in resolving to try something different.
Evolution of the mind and spirit takes conscious effort and dedication.
We all have the opportunity to grow as individuals and expand our potential;
But it requires work to unlock our preset ideas and discover our true selves.

“You are most powerful, most effective, when you are completely yourself.”
––Eckhart Tolle

Sunday, January 10, 2016

Happiness

My grandma always used to say, “If you have to cross the street to find happiness, you’ve gone too far.”
I’d respond with a groan and remind her that I’d heard that before––she’d smile and say, just remember it.
Now that she is gone, I think about her and that saying all of the time.
I miss her laughter, the smell of her soft skin, her unconditional love, wisdom, support and guidance.
Thankfully, I hear her voice speaking in my head often; usually reminding me that happiness is within.
As I continue to work on evolving into a more enlightened person, I seek knowledge from others who have discovered their inner light.
While reading a chapter in, A New Earth, I was reminded of my grams favorite saying, and it suddenly made sense in a whole new way.
Searching for happiness is not the answer, exploring why I might be unhappy with a circumstance is more productive, and allows me to move past the obstacle there by making room for a positive reaction.
Happiness is not something you are, it is something you work toward everyday––in releasing the doubt and accepting light.

Saturday, January 9, 2016

Within Not Without

The most overwhelming obstacle in life can be taking the first step;
Focusing on action in a new direction.
We struggled as toddlers and we continue to stumble along the path toward reaching our full potential.
The idea that most of us crawled before we walked escapes our memory somewhere along the road to adulthood, and we forget that nothing worth having comes easy.
There is no short cut that leads to success––more to the point, there is no success which promises inner happiness.
No dollar amount or opportunity can provide peace in our soul;
Reaching career goals, accomplishments, material processions and wealth can contribute to an already enlightened heart, but I haven't found a magic wand that replaces the work that has to be done in order to evolve as a human.

Friday, January 8, 2016

Awareness

I live in a town full of glamor, fame and ego-driven success;
Los Angeles has a reputation (almost as famous as the movie stars who live here) for being fake.
Admittedly, there are a lot of bodies that have been enhanced, résumés that have been exaggerated and conversations that are less than honest.
Despite the negative aspects, Southern California is surrounded with art, culture, massive mountains and an impressive coastline.
The sun shines, wildlife thrives and those who seek adventure can find it anywhere in the form of almost anything from snowboarding to surfing, opera to  art openings.
So how does a location with so many extraordinary features invoke such negative attention.
Let’s be honest––everything ego-driven in LA can be said of New York City, Paris, London, Rome; yet Hollywood takes the blame.
Los Angeles (the city itself) has become an analogy for the people who comprise the city.
How does fixating on the negative aspects of a circumstance; whether it be a person, city or dream serve me?
How can I shift my perspective to help others become aware of the beauty that surrounds them––wherever they are?

Thursday, January 7, 2016

Change of Plans

Letting go of plans;
Requires trust in the unknown.
How can I live a full life if I don’t make room for surprise.
The rainy day off was an ideal opportunity to visit with friends, eat a delicious lunch and catch up with a close friend.
Plus, I was actually more creative afterward and I still accomplished a few goals.
#Balance

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

Body Philosophy

My body is healthy and strong;
Time has not yet erased the presence of happiness and youth.
One day not far from now my body will show the scars.
Will I be able to look in the mirror with love and acceptance?
Only when I love my body completely––for what it provides and not how it looks, will I find inner-acceptance and peace.

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Losing Ego

The idea of letting go of material possessions has never been that difficult for me.  Perhaps it is because I have a sister who is a borderline hoarder.
(I mean that with as much love and support possible while recognizing the truth.)
Growing up, I watched her put so much energy into the memory or an object;
Whereas I’m the opposite, I put equal weight into the idea of a goal.

As I read, A New Earth, by Eckhart Tolle, I’m discovering that I too was attaching to possessions––mine just happened to be ideas.

Generally, I’ve been the type of person who forces myself to move on:
From jobs when I feel they’ve served their purpose,
Friendships that no longer serve the wellbeing of either party,
Televisions shows that have run their course,
Fad diets that stop working,
You get the point.

The pain from loss is intense, and secretly there is a part of me that enjoys the discomfort––which is why I challenge myself to let go of previously mentioned circumstances.

Now I’m focused on how much I will hold onto an idea––even if it no longer serves me.  A powerful question (from Tolle’s book) has enticed my mind to rethink loss:

“Has who you are become diminished by the loss?”

I’ve never been afraid of dropping jobs or friendships because I’ve never felt less-than by releasing them.  Yet, I’ll hold onto an idea (even if it’s no longer important) for fear of feeling inadequate.
I’m ready to release the ego in order to make room for new opportunities.

Monday, January 4, 2016

Faith not Fear

Silence surrounded by chaos,
The moment you transcend the fear and invite the light;
Surrendering to God’s path doesn’t mean giving up,
It means working harder than ever with confidence that the energy will manifest into an unknown opportunity.
Releasing ego and replacing it with Faith.

Sunday, January 3, 2016

Pain Means It's Working. Right?

That feeling you have the day after an intense workout;
I didn’t realize my body could ache in so many places.
No seriously, I didn’t even know I had a muscle there!
Like Oprah, 2016 is the year of loving my body like never before!
Not through Weigh Watchers (unlike Oprah), but with a positive outlook, hard work and major portion control.
I’m done with comparing my physical appearance to anyone else;
I’d rather discover the best version of me––inside and out!

Saturday, January 2, 2016

Timing

I don’t care how cliché it is––timing is everything.
I do believe everything happens for a reason;
From the most brilliant to the down right disastrous,
I trust that everything I encounter is a piece of the puzzle that will prepare me for a larger picture.
I sat down to set goals and incorporate ideas to work towards in 2016, as I do at the start of every new beginning.
After several weeks of meditation and thought, the theme of “light” continued to nag at me.
The idea of drowning out the darkness with the pure positive energy of light continued to call, so it is––my focus will be to find the light in every circumstance.
Today, I picked up a book that I purchased back in 2008––for whatever reason I was unable to appreciate the message at the time, so it sat on my shelf, and started working on my own book.
Now, eight years later, my book has been published and I’m in a very different place in my life.
I decided to start reading Eckhart Tolle’s, “A New Earth” as part of another goal for 2016.  The once cumbersome words were now shining off the page.  It wasn’t until I got to the last sentence in the first chapter that I knew I had selected the perfect time to read this book:
“The light of consciousness its all that is necessary.  You are that light.”
Timing is everything.

Friday, January 1, 2016

Hello 2016

There is nothing more intoxicating than a blank page in a fresh new journal.
For some, especially writers, that empty space is overwhelming;
I see it as an opportunity to reinvent my story.
An empty canvas––the only expectation, to imagine the possibilities.
I’ve always been that guy who sets goals, both attainable and lofty dreams that seem impossible, which provide a brilliant challenge for me.
In my twenties I spent too much time focusing on hitting the target, and didn’t appreciate the path through the woods––with unexpected obstacles; at the time I considered them roadblocks, now I realize they were challenges that helped me fine-tune my shot.
In my early thirties I refined my approach.  I focused my energy and harnessed my efforts in order to soak in the sunlight that beams down along the trail.
Now, I’m expanding my ideas.
I’m less concerned with hitting specific career goals, and more determined to seek happiness in the daily journey.
Human nature tells me to continue wanting; no matter how out of reach the goal might be, once I’ve accomplished it––like a junkie looking for the next fix, I need more!
I’m ready to break that cycle.  Not that I believe there’s anything wrong with aspiring to achieve new heights, but I’d rather splendor in the moment rather than constantly fight to feel happiness through achievements.
I have never defined my success based on a job or dollar amount, still I fall victim to the mindset that “it” will never be enough.
“If I could just sell this book, then I’ll be happy.”
So as I face the bright empty glow of cotton card-stock, I set in motion a new plan.  I will embrace each day with light and fearlessness, and as I work to accomplish new goals––I will stay present and be thankful for the challenge each new day brings; without stress or doubt.  Every roadblock is conditioning me for the next adventure.

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Goodbye 2015

When I look back on the past year I remember;
Brilliant things happen when you stop pushing and start trusting.
There is nothing more powerful than light.
I’ve spent most of my life fighting, pushing, praying, searching, dreaming;
Now, I’ve found a place of peace––I am open to the path unwinding.
I’m not afraid of the shadows,
I will conquer the darkness and hurdle the roadblocks.
My journey leads me on a new adventure: I am ready.

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

Find The Light

Mesmerized by the glowing ambers;
The flame dances,
Reminding me to see my passion everywhere.
Ignited and ready to blaze in the new year!

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

A New Day In LA

Golden slivers pierces through my window;
Enticing me to separate from the warmth of my cozy bed.
Awake the day with coffee and conversation,
Mind fresh, gratitude plentiful, and endless possibilities.

Monday, December 28, 2015

Sunday, December 27, 2015

Christmas Coma

The day after Christmas I fight back the urge to take down all of the decoration:
Standing as a defiant reminder of a day that comes and goes;
Leaving a trail of financial ruin, selfish children, and cranky parents.
I admit, I fall victim to the joyful cheer that begins in early November––commercialism and the lure of family traditions.
I have to take it down, now!
But I know, regardless of how hard I resist, next year I will shower my home with Christmas too early, and all will be right again.

Saturday, December 26, 2015

A Trip To The Mall

The line for the parking lot was a parking lot;
People with bags of returns passing people exiting the mall with armfuls of merchandise and clothing now at "blowout" bargain prices!
Store associates ready to hide,
There's no escaping the angry woman without a receipt.
Why did I come to the mall? Tradition.
I walked in with a return, 
And departed with two leather club chairs and twelve linen napkins...
Don't judge me!


Friday, December 25, 2015

Merry Christmas

I miss my family who are not near this time of year;
But I’m thankful for the man who brings me cheer.
The Christmas spirit: Sharing Faith, love, and goodwill to family and friends.
Midnight mass was a reminder to release fear and trust in God;
Beautiful music, a joyous celebration of the season.

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Twas the night before Christmas and all through our condo;
Not a creature was stirring,
Because we’re all lounging on our brand new sofa!
The stockings are hung and our fireplace is glowing,
Our tree is gleaming;
And thank God it’s not snowing––it’s a fabulous perk of living in LA.

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

The Wait Is Over

Today marks the end of a fifteen year wait;
From my very first day working at the Pottery Barn on the Upper West Side of New York City, I knew that I would one day own a well-built piece of furniture.
The anticipation hurts almost as much as my butt from sitting on a less-than-perfect couch for too many years.
After a decade of dreaming of a designer, u-shaped sectional sofa of my very own––I will experience the comfort of luxury.
#MerryChristmas

Tuesday, December 22, 2015

Holiday Break

It’s a rainy LA morning.
Christmas is just around the corner, and I am in full vacation mode.
There are hundreds of activities and errands I should be doing;
I’m giving myself the rest of 2015 off!
Although I just spent the last hour deleting emails from 2006 from my server––what can I say, I love an organizational activity.
Now, time for hot coco and puppy cuddles on the couch with a Christmas movie.

Monday, December 21, 2015

Sunday, December 20, 2015

The Calm Before Christmas

The end of the year approaches faster than department stores axe their Halloween displays and deliver us Christmas.
Longing to delight in the decadence of the festive season, I plan too many parties, dates with friends and family, and overbook my schedule;
Leaving me overwhelmed and stressed.
Every year I remind myself to enjoy the moment and appreciate each event, but I end up spending more time just trying to stay calm and get through it.
So today, I’m offering myself the chance to binge watch cheesy Christmas movies (thank you Hallmark Channel) while wrapping presents, chatting on the phone with loved ones, and yes––eating too many Christmas treats.
Tis The Season.

Saturday, December 19, 2015

Christmas Is Coming

When I was young, my grandma would sing Christmas carols with me;
It was an exciting way to welcome in the holiday––full of joy, love, Faith, and family.
While I’m grateful for the blessings and life that I live now,
I get nostalgic for those simple memories.
Today I’m treating myself to a trip to the Grove (an outdoor mall) where I will thrust myself upon the holiday madness, search for gift bargains I can’t live without, and hopefully hear a carol or two around the piano at Nordstrom;
Christmas is coming, and I need a boost of jolly!

Friday, December 18, 2015

Find The Light

It’s thrilling to be awake early enough to watch the sky change from dark to light;
It’s remarkable how fast the transition is:
I glance outside to see a cold, dark winter morning,
Then a sliver of light cuts through the bare trees that line my backyard––and in a breath the sky is brilliant blue.
Another reminder that light will always overcome darkness.

Thursday, December 17, 2015

Day Off

Breakfast at home,
Walk along the LA Riverwalk, Sherman Oaks,
Window shopping on Ventura Boulevard,
Barrel and Ashes––deliciousness,
DVR on the couch with the family!

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Note To Self

The holiday parties are bad for my waistline!
But great for wasting time laughing, drinking, and reconnecting.

Tuesday, December 15, 2015

Tis The Season

Tis the season for holiday cheer;
A party every night will surely lead to a ten pound surplus of Christmas jolly.
And by “jolly” I mean fat like Santa...
Time to ho, ho, ho myself to yoga!
If I’m going to eat, drink, and be merry––I need to find the inner peace to shake like a bowl full of jelly.

Monday, December 14, 2015

Oh Shoot!

Life on set gabbing with artists;
Sex talk at the craft service table,
Poop talk between takes—
I'm not sure who is more explicit:
The crew or the talent. 

Sunday, December 13, 2015

Hanukkah

Family, friends, food and wine;
Lighting candles and illuminating the reason we celebrate.
The parties and gifts are fun,
But Faith is the true gift.

Saturday, December 12, 2015

Family Vacation Day 5

A day to relax and spend quality time;
Blocking the negative from my mind––I’m focused on positive energy.
I love my family.
After we’ve said goodbye, I watch them drive away.
Back to their lives, and me to mine;
I will hold onto the fun memories and erase the dark spots.

Friday, December 11, 2015

Family Vacation Day 4

Long days,
Sleepless nights,
Hungry bellies;
Pointless fights.
I love my family. Even when they hurt my feelings.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Family Vacation Day 3

Expectations lead to let-downs;
Gratitude, love and letting go inspires laughter.
Sometimes.
I love my family.

Wednesday, December 9, 2015

Family Vacation Day 2

Early morning wake-up call;
Five grown adults and a kid have to shower.
I’ll let them fight over who goes first––I need a Starbucks!
The drive to Disneyland will be long:
Puppies in tow.
Christmas cheer among the crowds waiting in line for a thirty second ride;
Tis the season!
I love having my family in town.

Tuesday, December 8, 2015

Family Vacation Day 1

Nineteen years and worth the wait;
The city I call home––where we spent our childhood, my sister returns!
Mom, sister, and niece are here.
Breakfast at our favorite childhood hole-in-the-wall,
My niece and I collect seashell at the beach.
Sand in our feet, I love watching her react to the foamy, brisk Pacific water.
Memories of laughter and love as we drive past the house from our youth.
Now cuddling on the couch with a cartoon before our journey to Disneyland.
I love when my family visits me!
Life is good.

Monday, December 7, 2015

Note To Self:

I am capable of accomplishing more in one day when I set targets;
Release the negative energy, and take action.
A full day equals a day fully lived!

Friday, December 4, 2015

Friendship

Catching up with old friends,
We shared New York City in our twenties––our youth;
Bonded for life like family.
Like sipping an expensive bottle of champagne, I savor the evolution of our relationship.
Neither time or distance will discourage our love.

Thursday, December 3, 2015

City to the Suburbs

Riding the train into Brooklyn with my friends, who swore they’d never move to Brooklyn (back when we were in our twenties), I discovered that I appreciate distance from the city life.
Interesting how age makes you appreciate space;
In life, love, friendship, and housing.

Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

Blame It On the Puppies...

If cuddling with my puppies while watching reruns of The Golden Girls was a sport––I’d be a Gold medal winner.
Their soft little bodies warm my bones better than grandmas electric blanket;
But it’s their unconditional love that provides such an enormous amount of joy which forces me to stay in bed an hour longer.

Monday, November 30, 2015

Back To The Grind

It’s always a bit of a challenge getting motivated after a week of holiday festivities;
I’m comforted by the fact that I leave for New York City in two days, however I realize I have about six days worth of work to process.
Lists, goals, and plans won’t help me know––I have to dive headfirst into the deep end.
Here goes...

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Friday, November 27, 2015

Thursday, November 26, 2015

Wednesday, November 25, 2015

Tuesday, November 24, 2015

Monday, November 23, 2015

That's ShowBiz

A charlatan always reveals their true character eventually;
Deceit hides in a bright smile with empty promises.
Lies laid like land mines in the Middle East.

Sunday, November 22, 2015

Dirty

Washing the dishes the morning after a dinner party is dirty, smelly, and it’s much more difficult to scrub away the caked-on shit;
Similare to recovering from a hook-up in your twenties.

Saturday, November 21, 2015

That's Life

I received a 4AM wake-up call;
Thanks to a reaction from the vaccination that both of my puppies had yesterday.
You don’t really know what love is, until you’re cleaning shit and vomit, while using a calming voice, “It’s okay sweetheart, you just had an accident.”
People who say dogs are just like having babies are wrong:
Babies wear diapers!

Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Work In Progress

I’m currently working on my next book and I forced myself to look back through old journals in order to accurately remember the past.
There’s a reason people warn you not to look back.
You get to revisit the best memories, but you have to relive the shitty parts, too.
It’s strange how far away some of those moments feel now;
Others flash before me like a movie and I struggle to believe they actually happened.
Reading the pages from my journals helped me to appreciate how far I’ve come and how focused I was, even back then, to set goals and work towards them.
I am proud of where I am and who I’ve become, and I accept that every day brings a new opportunity to evolve as a person.
The beautiful discovery is while I continue to work toward self-improvement and career advancement, I'm living my dream—and that is my definition of “making it.”

Tuesday, November 17, 2015

The Pulse

Twirling emotion,
Dancers feel everything;
Music guides our breath.

Missed Opportunity?

#MakeUpPost
I partied too hard in November––which is why I'm a post shy;
If I were in school I'd receive an B-
Not acceptable!

Monday, November 16, 2015

Life of an Artist

The deception and false hope;
There is no such thing as a day off in Los Angeles.
Try as I might to relax and underachieve––the DNA in my blood pumps and sends demands to my brain.
Work, work, work! you crazy fool;
If you want to get ahead, you can not rest.

Saturday, November 14, 2015

Friday, November 13, 2015

That's Life

There are people who respond to confrontation with poise and wisdom;
And then there are all of the rest.
I'm shocked that anyone at the executive level (in any arena) considers "no response" a reasonable acknowledgement.
My job is not to do the job of others, it's simply to proceed accordingly.
AKA time to get aggressive! 

Thursday, November 12, 2015

Wednesday, November 11, 2015

Junk Food Days Are Over...

A trip to the Cheesecake Factory left me:
With heartburn,
A guilty heart,
and
Fat.
I think my “cheat days” are coming to an end;
Just another loss as you get older.

Tuesday, November 10, 2015

Monday, November 9, 2015

Sunday, November 8, 2015

Raging Headache

Waking up with a headache after a night of alcohol-free partying feels like eating birthday cake without frosting;
Completely unfair and upsetting!
Allergies suck.

Saturday, November 7, 2015

Ironing My Pants

Just like my life;
Some of the wrinkles are deep.
This is going to require some additional attention.
Not every crease is forever.
I wish there was an iron for every situation in life.

Friday, November 6, 2015

Nasty Movie Nightmare

When a film is so terrible that you have nightmares;
Then wake up the next day to realize that you spent $16 on a crappy movie that gave you bad dreams: it’s a day terror!
#TheNewBondFilmSucks

Thursday, November 5, 2015

Ring On The Bells

We're still a month and a half away from Christmas and the tintinnabulation blasting from the premature holiday commercials is pumping me up!