Friday, December 6, 2013
Today was no exception!
After a wonderful week with my mom, the time has come for her to return home.
I try to remind myself to enjoy my time with her, and remember that I'll see her again soon-
Unfortunately, no matter how old I get or how much time I'm able to spend with her, saying goodbye kills me.
I will miss her warm energy, laughter and sassy commentary.
But more than anything else, I will miss how safe and protected I feel while she's visiting.
I think I have such a tough time with goodbyes, because I realize how long the space between "hello" can be.
I'm grateful for 21st Century technology.
FaceTime has revolutionized long-distance communication, but nothing will replace the caring embrace of my mom or the delicious smell of her homemade pizza!
Safe travels mom. I can't wait for the next hello!
Thursday, December 5, 2013
As each of them entered our house for the first time, they reacted with oohhs and aaahhs.
Noticing the floors, the fixtures, the art on the walls-
(Everything we worked so hard on, and hoped would stand out!)
After everyone took the tour, we sat down with a drink and began talking.
In no time at all we were laughing and sharing wonderful stories.
It was a reminder that a home is not about the gorgeous new hardwood floors or recessed accent lighting;
It's about the love you bring into a new space!
I'm so grateful that we have so many wonderful friends and family that will bring life into our beautiful new home.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
I woke up this morning with every intention of getting some things done around our new home.
Instead, I find myself sitting on the sofa with my Shih Tzu on my lap and my Yorkie wedged between my thigh and the sofa!
I think they're trying to tell me something. Perhaps if they could talk they'd say, "Stop ignoring us! You've been so focused on fixing up our new home, you haven't even given us a bone."
I get it puppies. I need to spend some quality time with you.
So today, instead of vacuuming, cleaning the kitchen, changing the faucet in the guest bathroom or working on my book (that is due December 31st!) I'm going to cuddle with you!
After all, puppies deserve attention and quality time too!
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Trying to enjoy a well balanced life.
I have family in town and a book deadline,
Focus Matthew, you'll be just fine!
I make a check list, and check it twice;
I'm not Santa, just a man with a mission.
(I can't rhyme everything.)
That is clear,
But I got my blog entry done today,
and made time for holiday cheer!
Monday, December 2, 2013
And stay up late,
You can finish your work.
Spend time with friends and family,
and still create!
Discipline is the key to achieving balance.
Set goals with enough time allocated to work on accomplishing them,
Then make sure to enjoy personal time too!
It's exciting how much you can do in a day,
There is ALWAYS enough time for work and play!
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Spoiled with love, laughter and gifts!
But mostly I'm grateful for the time I get to spend with her,
Sharing stories and catching up on her life.
My mom has always inspired me to take on new challenges, invite change and live in the moment;
Which is exactly what I needed this time of year.
To push myself past the fear and embrace the exciting new opportunities!
Saturday, November 30, 2013
Friday, November 29, 2013
Still craving stuffing,
As if three servings wasn't enough!
The taste of gravy still on my tongue,
Sweet pumpkin pie and wine with friends,
It was a Happy Thanksgiving up to the end!
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Marriage, a new home, a book deal.
I'm overcome with gratitude.
Despite the emotionally devastating loss of my gram-
I'm thankful for her love and spirit that lives on in me.
None of my accomplishments or victories would bring joy or happiness if I couldn't share them with my supportive family and friends.
I give thanks to every single person that has impacted my life;
I am a kinder, wiser, more loving and successful man because of them.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
Present in this moment in time.
If I choose to focus on plans, events or goals for the future, I'm missing out on today.
Life is overwhelming enough on a daily basis-
Why continue to stress, worry and plan for a tomorrow?
There is no guarantee that todays fears about the future will even pertain.
In fact, there's no promise that tomorrow will even come.
Live in this moment, because I am here now.
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
I knew exactly what I wanted and no one could convince me that my path might be a challenging one.
I stayed focused and confident.
Slowly I began achieving small victories that guided me to new opportunities.
I've made a career out of following every twist and turn,
I've said "yes" to new adventures and unexpected offers.
It's important that I "check in" with myself at every stage of my life to realize that I have enjoyed a continuous journey of growth, discovery and success.
As long as I stay committed to my Faith, confidence and hard work, I will soar.
Monday, November 25, 2013
In order to manifest the life that we plan for ourselves,
We must first be ready to accept the opportunity that is right in front if us,
Regardless of how overwhelming or frightening it may be.
The adventure that awaits us is "the plan."
Sunday, November 24, 2013
Saturday, November 23, 2013
It's not enough to have a vision,
You must strive for focused energy on every project or adventure.
To label yourself a creative person, and spend little time working and growing is lazy and irresponsible.
Even the most inspired artists have moments of fear, rejection or negative thoughts-
Creativity demands action to over come the challenges!
Friday, November 22, 2013
Thursday, November 21, 2013
Wednesday, November 20, 2013
Tuesday, November 19, 2013
The cycle never ends.
The more I make,
The more "they" take,
I need to save-
A seemingly impossible concept to grasp;
Especially while renovating a new home!
Now I know why they call homeownership a money pit!
It doesn't even compare to the pit in my stomach...
Now if you'll excuse me,
I've got to get to work!
Monday, November 18, 2013
are websites that don't work properly!
RAGE engulfs my entire being.
Why won't you load?
Why is there an "error" message?
Why does technology fail me!
Sunday, November 17, 2013
Saturday, November 16, 2013
Friday, November 15, 2013
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Tuesday, November 12, 2013
I'm just not happy unless I'm committing myself to:
meetings, classes, creative projects, producing, developing relationships, home improvement projects, flying around the country choreographing and teaching workshops, the list is endless.
The non-stop hustle of it all is tiresome and rewarding and I wouldn't have it any other way!
Monday, November 11, 2013
Sunday, November 10, 2013
Saturday, November 9, 2013
Friday, November 8, 2013
Thursday, November 7, 2013
Quite nights near the fireplace.
I'm beside myself with excitement and uncertainty;
Life is always a wild adventure, now I officially have a home base to feel safe.
It's a beautiful day!
Wednesday, November 6, 2013
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Sitting in morning rush hour traffic for an hour and a half on the way home, is brutal.
Getting to Starbucks just in time for them to run out of my favorite breakfast sandwich, is RAGE-worthy!
Who knew a trip to the airport could be so disappointing?
Monday, November 4, 2013
First things first:
Coffee, morning journal writing, creative blog post, check in on social media.
Review the tasks and goals I'd like to accomplish and create a game plan.
Morning meditation, thirty minute hike and breakfast.
I'm focused and ready to give this week my full attention.
Sunday, November 3, 2013
Spicy and savory,
Magnificent vegetables drowning in coconut curry sauce,
Thai chili paste I adore you!
I celebrate each SINsational bite of the drunken noodle;
Saturday, November 2, 2013
Friday, November 1, 2013
The week has passed-
Like my grandpa said:
"When you get older, the weeks go so fast."
As a kid, I couldn't wait for the weekend,
As an adult, I just wish I could hold on to each day a little longer.
Enjoy each moment for what it brings,
Soon enough I'll be wearing diapers! ...again.
Thursday, October 31, 2013
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
It's going to be a terrific Tuesday I can tell;
The birds are chirping,
The sky is blue,
I'm enjoying a cup of coffee on my balcony.
Then off to work, meetings all day-
But looking forward tonight,
Dinner with friends downtown,
Balancing work and play!
Monday, October 28, 2013
I battle the urge to live in the future;
Always aware of where I'd like to be,
What I'd like to be doing.
I've been a "planner" since I was a very young kid.
The need to set goals, make lists, and map out an entire year of my life-
In many ways, I believe I've succeeded at my dreams because I was so focused.
Yet there is a part of me that strives for a release.
A break from always anticipating every moment.
Do I miss the real "payoff" because I've been so attached to the idea of what "it" will feel like?
Ultimately I think a little anticipation goes a long way;
My goal is to have an understanding of what may come,
But be open and ready to be surprised!
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Sunday mornings are calm and peaceful,
Even my puppies lie quiet, despite the 7 AM alarm.
Lazy and warm, we stay cuddled up in bed,
Until the rich aroma of coffee (set on auto the night before)
Entices me to start my day!
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Is what all of my USC friends shout in every direction on game day.
The energy in the stadium is astounding;
A sea of cardinal and gold.
The band provides the perfect beat,
The song girls kick and turn every time the players soar,
And just in case your keeping score:
USC wins again.
Friday, October 25, 2013
Early morning phone call from my sister,
I could hear in her voice she was shaken.
Instantly concerned, I ask if she's okay,
With that, the flood gates of emotion come pouring out.
It doesn't matter how old we are, or how far apart we live,
I can always tell when my sister needs me.
Hearing her cry breaks my heart.
I wish I could give her a hug.
I listen as she begins to calm herself down,
Sometimes we just need each other to cry, laugh or vent,
Just like we did as kids.
I love my sister so much-
I get caught up in my day to day life, activities and personal B.S.
I forget how much I miss her.
On a positive note, I'm so grateful for FaceTime!
Thank you Apple iPhone for keeping me near my family, even while they're so far away.
Thursday, October 24, 2013
Wednesday, October 23, 2013
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
It's a special odor unlike any other;
The adrenaline, anger and potential for things to go seriously of course makes the body react in such strange ways.
Every toxin in the body rises to the surface to motivate you to push through the stress,
Leaving you with a euphoric and smelly outcome.
Monday, October 21, 2013
Who knew buying a home while producing a television show would be so stressful?
I always fantasized that buying my first home would be a joy;
Similarly, I imagined that running a television show would be exciting and fun.
While both opportunities are a huge blessing,
I'll be grateful when we're comfortably moved into our new home, and we've found our groove on the set!
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Not quite a nightmare,
But definitely not a fairy-tail either;
There's nothing worse than waking up from a bad dream.
Emotions on edge,
You spend the rest of the day with a terrible feeling,
Realizing it's was just a dream only makes the day more frustrating.
Like when I dream I've won millions of dollars, only to wake up and discover the truth...
How can I be this upset over something that happened in my mind while I was sleeping?
Friday, October 18, 2013
Goodbye Parties are brutal.
Emotions are high,
Too much alcohol,
Clicks of friends meeting the "secret" friends,
Dancing, dancing, crying, dancing,
The long walk home and the hangover in the morning.
So long good friend, I hope you'll stay in touch!
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Monday, October 14, 2013
Sunday, October 13, 2013
Saturday, October 12, 2013
Friday, October 11, 2013
Thursday, October 10, 2013
I've heard thousands of horror stories about buying a home;
I just never realized all of those first time home owners I talked to were seriously UNDER exaggerating!
We're fighting so hard to own a house that isn't our first choice;
It isn't even our fourth choice-
From what I understand, this is just the first challenge in a nonstop saga of homeownership!
But I'm ready to join the big boys.
Wednesday, October 9, 2013
Buying a home is an interesting process;
Never have I been so excited to spend so much time, energy and money on something that is only going to cause stress and financial hardship for the rest of my life...
Oh right, there is my career in show business too!
Tuesday, October 8, 2013
I offer up my fear to God,
To the 'sellers' realtor, we offer up a solid quote,
To anyone out there, I offer my services as talented:
producer; director; choreographer; performer; teacher!
Everything works out for a reason.
Monday, October 7, 2013
Sunday, October 6, 2013
Saturday, October 5, 2013
Friday, October 4, 2013
I love Friday, and have since I was a kid.
Friday is a beautiful hybrid of productivity and play.
There are still goals and tasks that you crunch to cross off a list,
In order to maximize on a carefree weekend of fun!
Not too stressful (like Monday.)
Not too lazy (like Sunday morning.)
Just a perfect balance!
Thursday, October 3, 2013
Wednesday, October 2, 2013
Crisp chill in the air.
Pumpkin Spice lattés keep me warm and satisfied.
Layered clothes in rich earthy tones;
Topped off with a bold scarf and fashionable hat.
My internal clock reminds me that the time change is rapidly approaching.
Short days, equal cozy nights,
I love the fall!
Tuesday, October 1, 2013
Monday, September 30, 2013
Whether writing a personal note or a professional response;
Keep it short and direct.
REMEMBER NOT TO USE ALL CAPS UNLES YOU WANT THE PERSON TO THINK YOU'RE YELLING AT THEM OR REALLY EXCITED ABOUT EVERYTHING!
Consider that not everyone understands "tone."
So a disclaimer: "The tone of this email is urgent, but caring..."
Helps clarify your point.
Finally, please remember that adding a period doesn't take up more time, so use punctuation, just like you were taught in school.
Thx! (Oh yes, short hand doesn't save time, it just looks foolish.)
Sunday, September 29, 2013
Saturday, September 28, 2013
In the midst of a heavy production schedule,
I will be traveling to Catalina Island for a wedding-
I feel like I'm caught in one of those cheesy tweenage action adventure films; Journey To An Island Wedding and Still Attempt To Meet Your Deadline!
Not to say that I won't have fun,
I just feel guilty for leaving all the work that still needs to get done.
The things we do for friends...
Friday, September 27, 2013
Thursday, September 26, 2013
I finished the job, WELL I might add...
So why haven't I been paid?
As a small business owner, I'm always disappointed with companies that don't value their Independent Contractors.
Don't mail me the check, hand it to me when I finished the job you asked me to do.
It's just good business!
Wednesday, September 25, 2013
We wrapped on an awesome new project last night;
I love when dance and television collide,
Intelligent Latin women, full of passion and talent...
It doesn't hurt that they're all gorgeous!
We got what we needed from them,
Now the real work begins-
The most important part of the story:
Ugh. It's a thankless job, but it has to get done.
Let's sell a show!
Tuesday, September 24, 2013
Nothing like a jam-packed schedule in LA;
Shooting a fun sketch for some friends with their own cabaret show in New York,
Then off to choreograph fifty 5th graders through the enchanted forest,
Next stop power lunch with industry friends,
Followed up with a full night of production on our next TV adventure.
The glamorous life is less less attractive when you don't have time to breathe.
Still, I love creative productivity!
Monday, September 23, 2013
The life of a chorus dancer is still the same;
Learn the combo,
When they're fun (like today's audition for Elf) they remind me of how much I love musical theatre and performing on stage.
I made it to the end of the audition, and the director and choreographer seemed to enjoy my performance, so fingers crossed, I get the job.
Which I REALLY need right now,
Because the 42 block walk home was very humbling.
Ten years later, and I'm still shuffling off to an audition with a backpack and bittersweet attitude.
You can take the chorus boy out of New York, but apparently he'll just keep living like he did there!
Sunday, September 22, 2013
Saturday, September 21, 2013
Friday, September 20, 2013
I think my iPhone 5 is watching me.
In fact, I'm positive that the iOS7 update is a collaboration between Apple and Big Brother;
Recording our every move,
Keeping tack of our online interaction,
Reporting our every step to the government, or worse...
Don't even get me started on the new design. It's too safe. To sterile. To clean. Too PC!
Thursday, September 19, 2013
Wednesday, September 18, 2013
Tuesday, September 17, 2013
It's a brisk fall day in LA.
I love the rolling fog along the Hollywood Hills.
If it weren't for the palm trees,
I'd swear I was on the east coast!
I'm going to get outside and take a hike...
Breathe in some of that crisp air,
Regroup, refocus and revitalize in the chill!
Monday, September 16, 2013
I spent the entire morning daydreaming...
Online shopping for a home.
I love to pretend that I'm on Million Dollar Listing;
I play both the Realtor and the client looking for a home!
Making an offer on a dream condo in West Hollywood.
That's the phase of life I'm entering.
Will I sacrifice space for location?
More money, less room in a fabulous, safe neighborhood.
We put it out into the universe, we're searching and I know it's going to happen.
Sunday, September 15, 2013
Saturday, September 14, 2013
I love Saturday mornings in West Hollywood.
The young Hollywood socialites are still passed in some random venue,
The good looking guys from WhereEverVille, USA turned Hollywood Bad Boys are sneaking out of the aforementioned venue, making the walk of shame back to their crappy studio apartments,
And the fabulous, although somewhat older, sassy, funny men are laughing out loud at the latest celebrity scandal while trying to "one-up" each other with their nonsense and gossip over a delicious cup of Starbucks;
Pumpkin Spice Latté, naturally.
Happy Sassy Saturday.
Friday, September 13, 2013
I believe in signs.
Primarily because I've relied on indicators throughout my journey.
I wouldn't walk down a dark alley alone if I saw two guys with knives hanging around on the corner;
That's a sign of more trouble to come.
Every time that I've struggled with my career path or a major life decision, I've asked God for a direction-
Clarity, guidance, strength, wisdom.
A sign so that I may feel comfortable with my choice.
The past three months have been rough on me; losing my grandma, career setbacks and financial fears. I began questioning, doubting and giving into fear. I allowed the opinions of others to control my choices.
I lost Faith in myself and God.
(I should mention that I don't believe in coincidence, nor do I doubt the presence of a spiritual being greater than me; God.)
So it's no surprise that I find myself once again humbled and grateful for the sign I received yesterday.
It didn't take much, just a simple reminder in the way of a Scripture I saw posted on Facebook:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
It was a direct answer to the questions I had while silently meditating in prayer.
It's a sign that I must hear, accept and trust.
It was an answer to my question of doubt.
Thursday, September 12, 2013
The ability to work, be creative and sustain a life for sixteen years in an industry that fights to crush your spirit on a daily basis, is a huge success.
That is the very definition of "making it" in my book!
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Twelve years ago today,
Heroes emerged to save the lives of innocent victims.
New York City gathered against hate and fought fear with love and peace.
Freedom comes at a price;
Today, I am grateful for all of those selfless men and women who continue to fight to keep our country the land of the free and the home of the brave!
Tuesday, September 10, 2013
After spending a wild night in LA with one of my oldest friends; dancing, laughing and reminiscing about our lives on tour it occurred to me:
I got to party like a Rock Star in Chicago, Europe, New York City and Los Angeles in my Twenties.
That's fucking awesome!
Monday, September 9, 2013
Errands to run,
Laundry to do,
Monday's in LA can feel like a zoo-
Traffic is stopped like a parking lot,
It's the daily grind...
Oh, coffee sounds good!
Quick trip to Starbucks,
It's my favorite spot!
Sunday, September 8, 2013
Saturday, September 7, 2013
80 degrees with a gentle breeze;
It's the perfect pool day in LA!
Lounging with a book,
Laughing with friends,
But definitely NOT eating!
Friday, September 6, 2013
Woke up in panic,
Take a deep breath-
Exhale the fear,
Life is short,
So I follow my dream,
Perhaps I'm blinded by the delusional state of mind I've lived in my entire adult life...
But so far, it's never let me down.
I continue to soar in the wind of unknown.
Thursday, September 5, 2013
That's not how the song goes?!
Sadly, that's how I felt yesterday at an audition.
Despite my yoga practice and all of the choreography and teaching I do,
The fact is, there are some things I just cannot do anymore...
Like extend my leg past 90 degrees!
Still, I can clean the floor with my style and story-
But don't ask me to do an eight count développé to penché!
It's just not going to happen.
P.S. I'll gladly keep my looks over my extension any day.
Plus, there are still those Broadway style, step touch shows that I'm perfect for!
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
I cannot let other people's insecurities effect me.
Nor can I let their fears become mine.
I must trust my path.
Stay healthy; mind, body & spirit.
Tuesday, September 3, 2013
You had such a bright future;
Mermaids was good for you.
I'm sorry that Angelina Jolie out-shined you in Girl Interrupted...
But it's time for a comeback-
I know you've got more in you than Black Swan and playing Spock's mom-
Monday, September 2, 2013
I woke up today with a huge pit in my gut.
Life is full of unknown obstacles,
Especially if you're in the entertainment industry.
Fighting to remain calm, focused and confident that another opportunity will come along;
I hate feeling fear-
I must take action.
Part of "making it" in the game of life,
Is moving forward, evening while you're struggling to find a reason to get out of bed.
Don't say the "D" word-
Just get up and work.
Every step forward, is a step in the right direction.
Sunday, September 1, 2013
Another summer comes to an end.
September is upon us;
Back to school,
Pumpkin Spice lattes,
The daily grind,
Layers of clothing,
The brisk chill in the air,
The smell of fireplaces at night.
Before long we'll be hearing Christmas music playing in drugstores!
Oh yeah, and rent is due!
Saturday, August 31, 2013
and sent my last email.
I think it's safe to say that social media is here to stay-
Now I'm off to enjoy my day!
Friday, August 30, 2013
You remember that life (no matter how much you fight it) is full of unexpected situations;
An opportunity comes along to perform on your dream TV show,
You get a phone call informing you that the wonderful job that you've been confirmed on, gets canceled- leaving you jobless for three months!
Dealing with the reaction to the news, positive or negative, is also a huge factor in the game of life.
I continue to learn, and relearn that life is a daring adventure,
Much like whitewater rafting.
One minute you're smiling, high on the rapids- dry and happy.
Then, out of nowhere, you're tossed out of the raft, into the violent water, and left praying that you don't get pulled under or hit a rock.
Somehow, you find a way to get back in the boat, and eventually back on top.
All you can do is fight for the things you want, and continue to say yes to opportunities.
You can't plan life-
But you can decide how to react.
Release the fear, and focus on how to rebound.
Stay positive and take action. Every single step forward, is a step in the right direction.
Thursday, August 29, 2013
We have two small dogs;
A Yorkie and a Shih Tzu.
Ginger, the Yorkie, is a 5 pound prima donna-
Lily, the Shih Tzu, is a tubby 11 pound, pound puppy.
Both are adorable, cuddly puppies who LOVE to bury their heads in a nice warm lap.
Just don't expect either one to fetch anything for you,
Lily will chase and play tug-of-war, but she has yet to master the art of catch and return.
Still, I love my puppies.
Even when the hog the entire bed and steal all of the covers.
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Today is one of those Hollywood days-
Finalizing our new press kit,
Coffee meeting with our manager,
Strategizing with our production partner,
Lunch meeting with network executives on the lot.
Hiking the Hollywood Hills,
And hopefully booking a gig...
All before lunch!
Tuesday, August 27, 2013
Monday, August 26, 2013
When the annoying downstairs neighbor gets me down;
Playing music with the bass pumped up to full blast until 2 AM, four days in a row...
I don't get mad-
I wake up EARLY Monday morning, put my favorite tap shoes on, and start cleaning my house.
I vacum while choreographing a heavy time step,
I dust in the middle of my cramp rolls (extra loud on the heel drops.)
I empty the dishwasher in the middle of a shim-sham and belt out the high note in my best audition song!
Because the fact is, some people are just shitty, disrespectful, unaware human beings that think the world revolves around them.
Truthfully, I don't mind neighbors throwing a wild dinner party or holding a club night in their home, as long as it's not a nightly occasion.
But when it's day four of what sounds like Lady Gaga and Britney Spears wrestling over the last mound of cocaine-
I'm going to fight fire with HEAVY, syncopated tap combinations that involve rearranging almost every piece of furniture I own!
Sunday, August 25, 2013
Saturday, August 24, 2013
Friday, August 23, 2013
I don't really believe in luck,
Mostly I just use the word as a point of reference.
I spent most of this week in a groggy, mopey, uninspired state of mind-
The kind of mental and emotional place that will get me nowhere fast!
I think we're all entitled to at least one or two moments like this a year;
But that is it.
I am a healthy, talented, hard working, intelligent and fun person,
I have absolutely no reason to let one day of my life pass without finding a happy moment!
So, release, relax and roll on!
Okay, the pep talk's over...
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Texting and Tweeting and Tagging oh my!
Spent 45 minutes surfing YouTube,
Before heading over to Facebook- where I was lost in an endless chain of shared social media satisfying.
Then off to Instagram for a photo bouquet...
I spend too much time using electronic devises, that are meant to help me connect to people!
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Monday, August 19, 2013
After a a summer on tour,
I'm so grateful to be back in town.
Hustling for meetings,
Creative writing sessions,
Maybe even a Monday morning movie matinee?
It's so good to be back in LA!
Sunday, August 18, 2013
Woke up early to get things done.
After church and a Starbucks it was off to work!
Hair cuts for the puppies,
Dust and sweep,
Cleaning the kitchen,
The list goes on,
But Sunday evening is time for fun.
Enough work, writing too.
I'm chilling with friends.
Saturday, August 17, 2013
Friday, August 16, 2013
Thursday, August 15, 2013
No matter how much they annoy you,
Through all life's ups and downs;
My truth with family-
They'll always come around.
Their love is unconditional,
Yes, it may be with emotion,
But nothing will break our bond.
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
I got to see my grandpa Shaffer in my last dream before I woke up this morning.
It was so nice to hear his voice,
Give him a hug and say I love you.
The dream was so real, I could smell him!
I'm so grateful for those moments with him,
Even if it is in a dream-
I still get to see him from time to time, and remember his impact on my life.
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Monday, August 12, 2013
As much as I hate traveling,
I'm so happy to spend some time off-
Colorado in August is always beautiful.
Looking forward to time with my family.
First trip without gram;
I'm sure there will be some rough patches,
But I'm here to live in the moment and enjoy my family.
PLUS- I get to sleep in. (I got up at 7:30 am instead of 6!)
Life is good.
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Friday, August 9, 2013
I thought the saying was New York, New York!
Nevertheless, I'm on a couch in Brooklyn visiting with my friends in the city.
Flashback to eight years ago, when I used to live in NYC, and you NEVER would have found me in Brooklyn! NEVER.
NOT because it wasn't safe, or hip, or cool.
It just wasn't The Big Apple!
When I was a kid growing up, I never dreamed about moving to Brooklyn-
No offense. It just wasn't part of the Broadway experience.
So after PLENTY of ribbing and clichéd jokes, I decided to give Brooklyn a chance...
I mean, I didn't really have a choice, that's where their house is, and I needed a bed to sleep in!
All I can say is that I was wrong.
Their tree-lined street is gorgeous. Their apartment is charming. The food and culture rivals anything I've seen in Manhattan, and they live right next to a spectacular park!
The only down side-
Two subway transfers and 20 minutes to get to midtown...
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Wednesday, August 7, 2013
Tuesday, August 6, 2013
Monday, August 5, 2013
In every blessing,
In my happiest moments,
and my darkest fears-
Every trace of doubt is removed, at the exact moment that I need to remember or feel His presence.
Through all my setbacks, questions and successes-
I believe in His path.
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Saturday, August 3, 2013
This morning I'm getting my creative juices flowing again!
Looking forward to shooting a fun sketch for Funny or Die.
Whether I'm working on my own projects,
or in this case, helping a friend out,
I'm always grateful I get to do what I love.
If you're passionate about your job,
It's a lot more fun to go to work...
Especially at 8:00 am on a Saturday!
Friday, August 2, 2013
I'm feeling much better about myself now that I'm back in LA.
When I'm on the road I lose track of the things that are most important to me.
My quality of life, family, goals and faith are what keep me grounded and motivated,
When I'm on tour, I don't have enough time to focus on maintaining balance.
But I'm back in LA and I'm up, up and away!
Working towards accomplishing more of my dreams.
One day at a time.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
The process of release is slow sometimes-
The point is that I'm trying.
Holding onto pain and the past, will not help my future.
I have to shake it off!
1, 2, 3...
Shake it off, shake it off!
(I think I understand the origin of that song!)
Wednesday, July 31, 2013
How long can I spend in sadness and self-doubt?
Don't answer that question!
Because the only answer is-
Too long! I've spent too long in this emotional mind frame.
If I've learned anything from the death of my gram,
It's that time does not stand still.
Whether I'm on board or not.
So as long as I'm here, I MUST use my time, creativity, energy and spirit to better myself and others.
You're either living or dying.
I refuse to die without living.
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
Woke up with a pit in my stomach...
I've got a lot on my mind-
Missing my gram,
Turmoil with dad,
Wanting to start a family of my own,
Ready to buy a home,
Striving to continue building my career,
How to afford everything and still spend time with loved ones...
I know that worrying about all of this isn't helping me achieve any of it!
Ordinarily I'm really good at releasing the fear, and focusing on efforts to accomplish each of these goals and dreams.
But after losing my gram, I STILL haven't found my rhythm of release and trust.
I know that I was placed here for a purpose,
I believe there is a path for my passion and spirit,
I have to release my fear,
And trust in my faith!
Monday, July 29, 2013
So far, my summer has been filled with work, travel and more work!
Notice I said "travel" and NOT vacation.
This weekend I did get to enjoy a weekend of wine, friends and wedding festivities in Napa, which was a nice treat.
But today, my summer vacation really takes off-
I'm going to Six Flags Discovery Kingdom with my niece and nephews!
The only thing I love more that family fun...
Is family fun on a roller coaster!
So without further ado,
I'm off to AdventureLAND!!!
Sunday, July 28, 2013
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Friday, July 26, 2013
Wine bus that seats sixteen;
Five vineyards on the tour-
Tastings, tastings, tastings galore!
BBQ at the bride and groom to be's gorgeous house.
Sleep in and a late brunch,
Champagne toast with the bride to be-
Rehearsal (dress tech!)
Rehearsal dinner and dancing!
Lounge by the pool,
Cocktail hour in a champagne cave,
Dinner is served,
Dancing on a cliffside bluff,
A drunken wonderful time!
Brunch with the Bride and Groom.
More pool time,
I LOVE weddings like this!
Congratulations Bevin and Lee
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
I've got a lot on my mind.
No matter how hard I try,
My ability to "release" has been suspended.
Spending the past month working away from home,
Setting up meetings,
Planning a fall work schedule,
Stressing about what's next,
Angry that I can't seem to achieve balance right now,
Upset that I'm angry.
The choice to release all of this and trust in my FAITH remains,
Yet I continue to drown myself deeper the pool of thoughts in my mind.
I need a life preserver from my mental wondering!
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
Monday, July 22, 2013
Living out of a carry on is so much fun;
Miss matched clothes,
Full of wrinkles.
Clean or dirty? It's a guessing game!
Airline vouchers, balled up receipts and random business cards, shoved in various sections of your brief case,
A laptop that doubles as your television set,
(Thank you Netflix!)
Maid service, but don't get used to this!
No one is going to pick up your dirty towels at home.
You're also never going to find a bed that is as inviting as the one you have at home.
Life in a hotel isn't all bad-
I mean you can get room service,
Free (crappy) toiletries,
and occasionally a wonderful pool to hang out at!
But I am so ready to return to my walk-in closet and familiar home!
Sunday, July 21, 2013
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Friday, July 19, 2013
Thursday, July 18, 2013
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Bloated and tired,
I lack sleep.
Trying to catch up on "life" at home,
While working and living out of a bag.
It's fun for a day in every new city...
Then it just becomes another hotel room that IS NOT your home.
Friends are near to keep you smiling,
Even if your laughing at the conditions.
Grateful for the opportunities,
Just wish I could go to the bathroom...
Monday, July 15, 2013
I'm up two hours before I'd like to be...
I'm up two hours before I need to be...
I'm up for a call time that I WON'T get paid for...
I'm up for NO reason at all...
I'm up because it's my job, and I'll do it with a smile...
I'm up on tour, and wish I was at home with my family!
Sunday, July 14, 2013
Eat, sleep, work, travel-
Pause: to return home for my gram's funeral-
Back on the road;
Eat, sleep, work, travel-
Pause: to get married! An event that we planned in half a day (while catching connecting flights at two different airports.
One night at home as a married man-
Travel, eat, sleep, work...
Life on tour never gets dull.
I work twice as hard to stay focused, active, creative, outgoing and happy while I'm out of LA.
Otherwise, I'd just be a cranky biathc!
Saturday, July 13, 2013
It is official!!!
I didn't think I'd feel a "change" but I was wrong-
Nothing would have prepared me for how huge an impact yesterday was.
I'm so blessed to be surrounded by a loving, accepting group of friends and of course my family!
Here's to a lifetime of continued joy!
Friday, July 12, 2013
After 11 wonderful years,
A proposition of hate,
And a ruling for Equality-
Love will prevail today.
Jeff and I are tying the knot.
There's never been a person in my life that has influenced, inspired, challenged or loved me more!
I hope that I can be that for him too!
For the rest of our lives.
Thursday, July 11, 2013
It's a goal of mine to remain happy-
Grateful for the blessing (and there are a lot of them) that I have in my life.
Nevertheless, I have those days when I wake up, and the weight of the world is on my shoulders.
Dealing with the loss of my grandma has been tough.
I know life goes on, and I've thrown myself into my job and creative projects to ease the pain-
But this morning I woke up and I just can't shake it off...
It's in these moments that I default to something I refer to as:
I'm not happy in any way,
But I lie to my self, and tell myself that if I pretend to be happy I will trick my mind into believing it.
I'm not sure that its working, but it's better than walking around in a state of depression.
Wednesday, July 10, 2013
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Laying in bed awake,
If I fall asleep now I'll get 4 hours of sleep.
I have to work all day tomorrow!
Finally pass out...
Time to wake up,
I hope I stay awake today!
Monday, July 8, 2013
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Saturday, July 6, 2013
Friday, July 5, 2013
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Losing gram this week was extremely devastating.
She was my best friend;
No one has ever inspired me,
Or believed in me more.
She was the first person I shared my victories with,
She eased the sting of my setbacks.
She reminded me of my accomplishments,
She knew my worth, and had faith in my talent.
I know that my life will go on,
I imagine the pain will never fully go away-
I just keep reminding myself that I could not have a better person as my guardian angel!
I trust that she will be up there working double time.
And nobody is more charmingly persistent,
Or effective at convincing people to take a chance!
I love you gram.
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
Sharlene was an active member of her sorority Epsilon Sigma Alpha- the Omega Chi chapter, and just received her 45 year pin. Sharlene was a true leader. She used her creativity, intelligence and outgoing personality in every aspect of her life. She was passionate about every project, job or adventure she took on, including her involvement with St. Benedict's church, the Pioneer Day Board, the Library Board, Fremont County Democratic Committee, working at St. Joseph's Manor, in addition to co-owning Shaffer's Still with her husband for 15 years.
Her favorite pass times always involved her family and friends. She loved trips to Las Vegas and Cripple Creek, playing bingo, dancing at Karaoke, playing in multiple Pinochle clubs, volunteering in her community and bragging about her grandkids.
Sharlene was preceded in death by her husband; Anthony Lawrence Shaffer, parents; Mike and Mary (Moschetti) Brator, and many other cherished relatives. She is survived by her son Tony (Louise), grandchildren; Matthew, Shiree, Julianne, and Abby, great- grandchildren; Kellyn, Seth and Olivia, and numerous cousins, nieces, nephews and friends.
Monday, July 1, 2013
Never mind the emotional loss,
I'm shocked and overwhelmed with how much it cost to die.
Everything has a price tag!
On the positive side;
There has been a nonstop barrage of;
donuts, deli platters, cheese plates, veggie trays, fruit salads and beverages!
...and plenty of company to eat, remember, cry and rejoice!
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Saturday, June 29, 2013
Last minute trip out of town,
I wish I could say it's for fun...
Gram is not well,
Struggling with Parkinson's.
She's tired, weak and not eating.
Every journey has a destination,
But the best adventures end too soon!
This is the hardest part of life-
Friday, June 28, 2013
I just downloaded a new photo application for my iPhone.
I've spent the past forty minutes playing around with innovative ways to crop my niece and superimpose her onto funny backgrounds...
Yes, instead of working,
I've been playing with my iPhone.
So basically, not much has change since I was a teenager playing on my Nintendo Game Boy!
Thursday, June 27, 2013
Something is returned to me via mail because of "incorrect information."
Because I have a copy, i.e. PROOF that I filled out your shitty form "correctly!"
So now I'm keeping an accurate record of every document and piece of correspondence...
That's right, I'm building a case against your ass!
...and have a great day!
Wednesday, June 26, 2013
The opportunity for two consenting adults that love one another, to proclaim their love in a ceremony with their friends and family-
Now every couple, straight or gay, will have the same rights, obligations and protection under the eyes of the law.
It's a good day in LA!
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Remember how much fun summer vacation used to be?
The anticipation of the last day of school.
Then; summer camps, pool parties, beach days, sleeping until 2 PM, watching TV all day, dates at the movie theatre, cruising the mall with friends, trips to visit family, weeknight sleepovers, camping out in the back yard, NO WORK!!!
Oh how fun it would be if adults had three months off in the summer too!